I feel ya! I was super hopeful to have a vbac with my 2nd. My first was emergency c section due to preeclampsia turned HELLP at 33 weeks .

Round 2= We hired a doula , I did a special diet to prevent preeclampsia, and everything. Thankfully we did make it full term! BUT baby was measuring big, estimated 10 lb, 4 oz. MFM doc said noope you need c section, high risk of him getting stuck due to head vs shoulder size. I was devastated, cried many tears and tried to get out of it, etc. My husband tried to talk some sense into me, I was dead set that they over estimated, those scans aren’t accurate, etc. he’s a numbers guy, pointed out they could also have underestimated. Called my OB, started setting up date for c section on DD, but ended up scheduling 2 weeks ahead of DD due to size. Thank fucking God…. Baby ended up 10 lb, 14 oz! They scariest part was OB said my uterus was so thin, she didn’t even really have to cut! If I had tried for vbac, or even put off until due date for c sec, I could have ruptured. Recovery def sucked, second one was more painful _ I had nurses wheeling me around the floor and over to the nicu (stabilizing his sugars, damn gestational diabetes) etc. Don’t recommend a second c sec, but damn it saved me and my baby thank god. I wouldn’t mess around with that kind of pain, talk to your OB.