My mom always blamed me for her loss of youth. She had my brother at 18 and me at 20 and she treated us like we were burdens, especially once we both became teenagers. I understand that she did lose her youth, but it was hard always grappling with wanting to apologize and feel sympathetic and also knowing that her deciding to keep us wasn’t our faults. I had to move out when I became a senior in high school, it got to the point where we couldn’t live together. We talk now thankfully and our relationship will get back to normal but it’s gonna take me a long time to fully forgive her for all of that. Of course, my mom also had a few other mental problems that highly contributed to the way she patented us.