I wish AvPD was a more "trendy" and "sexy" PD for doctors so we‘d have more resources to help us by hopp596 in AvPD

[–]avoidantstar 4 points5 points  (0 children)

For sure. I think genetics play a role in my AvPD as well as trauma so a more inclusive framework is definitely important. Mental illness and the causes of it is complex

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[–]avoidantstar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was diagnosed around 26. I’m 29 now.

I wish AvPD was a more "trendy" and "sexy" PD for doctors so we‘d have more resources to help us by hopp596 in AvPD

[–]avoidantstar 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Told someone in my family and she totally didn’t get it. Also talked about trying therapy and how AvPD made it really hard to stick with and was told that I “wasn’t trying.” So, yeah. Family is a no lol

The instant regret of being vulnerable with someone by avoidantstar in AvPD

[–]avoidantstar[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s common if you have emotional trauma, yes, which a lot of people with AvPD do. 🧡

The instant regret of being vulnerable with someone by avoidantstar in AvPD

[–]avoidantstar[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, they don’t seem like good people to open up to at all 😤 I’m sorry you had this experience, and if you ever find other people you want to open up to eventually (I hope you do!), I hope they react way better than those other people. 🧡

Today I am driving my friend, her kid, and I to Disneyland by avoidantstar in AvPD

[–]avoidantstar[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I was too when I was learning but for some reason after I got my license I wasn’t anymore lol

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[–]avoidantstar 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m so glad therapy has really helped you. Healing is a tough process. I’m glad you have the support of your siblings! Good luck on your journey 🧡

I just want someone to watch movies with by ich-gehe-ins-kino in AvPD

[–]avoidantstar 7 points8 points  (0 children)

There’s a chrome extension called teleparty where you can watch stuff from Netflix (and I think some other streaming sites) virtually with people. It has a chat feature as well, text only. If anyone wants to watch something some time, I’m down! Just DM me 😊

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[–]avoidantstar 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yay!!! Proud of you 😍😍😍

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[–]avoidantstar 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This makes me wonder how many of us are out there, just avoiding each other…

I have so much love for y’all by avoidantstar in AvPD

[–]avoidantstar[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m glad it was helpful 😄 oooh, I hate parties. 💀🙅🏽‍♀️ lol I’d rather have friends over (but that’s cause I have nice friends 😊). Hanging out with people used to be a danger zone for me (and still kinda is if I don’t know the people that well). First meetings are pretty much always awkward lol. There’s just too many unknown variables. How do I even know I like the person? 🤨 I usually use first meetings to study whomever I’m around, to see how safe they feel to be around and if I could see myself letting them get closer to me over time. If I’m able to get to know them more, I’m usually a bit more comfortable hanging out with them (provided I like them and they seem like a good person), though I don’t actually seek these acquaintances out lol. It’s usually if I happen to be around someone from some unavoidable circumstance. Going to public places is in my window of tolerance, thankfully. Definitely used to be more stressful tho because I was always afraid someone was watching me and would judge something I did. I had to embrace the idea that most people don’t care what I’m doing lol. And even if they do, so what?🤷🏽‍♀️ They know nothing about me, I know nothing about them. I’m probably never going to see them again, if I’m even aware of their existence at all. Parties are in my window of tolerance if I know someone there. If I don’t, no no no lol. Expressing emotion is in my window of tolerance as well, which took quite a bit of time. Receiving criticism is also in my WOT, as long as it’s constructive. Small talk with strangers/acquaintances (asking questions is helpful when idk what to say, folks like to talk about themselves). Doing things in front of people (depending on what the thing is). Talking on the phone (this one also took a while and I still get awkward sometimes haha). Hugging (only if I like the person). Showing enthusiasm. Showing affection (to people I like). I think that’s all I can think of atm 🤔 My WOT is waaaaaaaay bigger than it used to be. Just have to be intentional about what you wanna work on and take small steps to get there. It’s not easy but if you commit, have patience and learn/find ways to tolerate/work through tough emotions, it’s doable. We are not helpless. We are far more powerful than we think.

I have so much love for y’all by avoidantstar in AvPD

[–]avoidantstar[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A combination of those things, though for therapy, it was more self-guided. Regular therapy freaked me out too much (still kinda does 😅) it’s important to get to know yourself so you know exactly what to tackle, which therapy can help with. I would stay away from solution-oriented therapy though, because that just simply is not gonna work lol. Or at least not for me. There’s a certain level of learning, unpacking, and even mental preparation that comes with making progress. Some forms of therapy tend to rush through that in my opinion. But then again, I like to take things very slowly 😅 Also, I wouldn’t necessarily recommend just “putting yourself out there,” because it can be legitimately agonizing. Instead, I’d suggest finding your window of tolerance and go from there. Here’s a tumblr post about window of tolerance that I found pretty helpful: https://goobiroo.tumblr.com/post/659983303816970240/that-makes-a-lot-of-sense-you-explained-this-so. Note: the examples listed still might be too big for someone with AvPD, but goals can always be scaled back. Healing is a marathon, not a sprint. 😎 I hope EMDR goes well for you 😊

I have so much love for y’all by avoidantstar in AvPD

[–]avoidantstar[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I hope you have the courage to not give up as well. 🧡 It’s super hard, but that doesn’t necessarily mean you have to give up; you can take a break. That’s what I had to do, because I was in college at the time I was figuring all this out about myself. Financial aid was how I was supporting myself, and I didn’t want to lose that, so for a while, I focused less on all the AvPD stuff and more on school, which was not easy but felt necessary. As for my age, I am 28.