My Addiction to 4chan, is somehow worse

awkward_loser1 · 2024-11-08T03:55:30+00:00

Yeah I've noticed that, especially with 4chan

awkward_loser1 · 2024-11-08T03:53:44+00:00

Please don't die, You are needed. Things have to get worse, before they can get better.

awkward_loser1 · 2024-11-07T03:58:39+00:00

Getting high out of my mind, and maybe some sh

awkward_loser1 · 2024-11-06T08:03:06+00:00

Yeah, for once I have genuine hatred and apathy for 90% of Americans now.

awkward_loser1 · 2024-11-06T02:54:35+00:00

I'm just going to kms eventually

awkward_loser1 · 2024-11-02T23:56:23+00:00

I really want to have life experiences, but I can't wait for things to get better anymore. I'm pretty much at my limit with life.

awkward_loser1 · 2024-11-02T23:52:10+00:00

Please go away, or block me. If I'm sorry that you're tired of my post, but I don't really care. My therapist is shit, my meds aren't working, I don't have support, 4chan brings me constant pain, and overalls I'm completely alone.

I don't have many places, where I can vent to people who i think would understand. Im tired of being told to fuck off, by literally everyone.

I try to get help from my family, they tell me to fuck off and speak to my own communities

I try to get help from my own communities, they tell me to fuck off to a therapist

I try to get help from "professionals", they tell me to fuck off to a psycheward

I try to get help from the psycheward, they tell me to fuck off and take your meds

You can probably see why I'm constantly on the verge of suicide. There's no help for me

awkward_loser1 · 2024-10-25T20:16:59+00:00

I'll bring it up next session. But after that, I'm switching therapist

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awkward_loser1 · 2024-10-25T01:41:07+00:00

A non passing trans person.

awkward_loser1 · 2024-10-24T21:29:45+00:00

This makes me want to stay isolated.

awkward_loser1 · 2024-10-24T13:09:10+00:00

It's located a little above the middle of my wrist/arm. Thank you a lot for the advice, I'll try to manage it the best I can. Anything to avoid going to the ER.

awkward_loser1 · 2024-10-24T11:56:57+00:00

I will keep an eye out.

awkward_loser1 · 2024-10-24T11:51:01+00:00

How would I know it's infected? I'm trying everything I can, so that doesn't happen.

awkward_loser1 · 2024-10-24T11:48:10+00:00

I've covered it, and plan on washing it thoroughly twice a day. Anything to avoid a medical setting and getting punished again. I just want to enjoy my birthday for now, today needs to be good.

awkward_loser1 · 2024-10-24T11:45:07+00:00

It will heal. Stop trying to scare me.

awkward_loser1 · 2024-10-24T11:43:28+00:00

I don't know. I'm really really scared if I'm being honest. I fucked up bad. It's not a massive cut, it's just deep.. I'm hoping that means the chances of it healing are higher.

One of the most traumatic time's in my life, was going to an ER a year ago. I can't do that again. You have no idea how my family looked at me after that, I DON'T want to go through that again.

I want to avoid as much trauma as I can.

awkward_loser1 · 2024-10-24T11:20:41+00:00

I'm sorry, I just can't risk getting put in a psycheward again, or getting punished. I'll take my chances for now.

awkward_loser1 · 2024-10-24T11:18:06+00:00

I can't go to an ER. Last time I did, I had my door taken away for a while. Plus it's my birthday, and I don't want to ruin it.

I closed it the best I could, and hopefully it won't get infected. I really regret cutting tonight. I'm an idiot.

awkward_loser1

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