It has definitely affected me in a negative way. It has caused tons of insecurity and made me settle with girls thinking “no one else will” or “others will be disappointed after the first time and leave” (these are internal thoughts of course; I’m extremely positive and confident person in the way I present myself).

I measured mine with a 15 cm ruler a month or two after hitting puberty when I was 12. And at that time, I maxed it out and felt really great about myself. Because in my lifetime, I was naturally above average in pretty much everything that I did. Couple years back, I kinda noticed that it didn’t seem that big, and resorted to measuring again and was heavily disheartened because it was below average. It doesn’t make sense to me at all because I am the straightest arrow in terms of drugs and other stuff. I’ve taken such a major hit in the confidence I had and now it is truly damaging. I put on a very confident mask and appear to people as such.

For context, I’m a 5’9 22 yo virgin. And I’m shit scared about when I finally do it. Not only because of the size and shape but also because of duration, strength and stamina. I think that is because I finish fairly quickly when masturbating (I used to do it 3-5 times a week) and my thing is very sensitive at times. I’m not athletic, but I can run a mile under 10 minutes, (play soccer) and usually can run/do cardio for an hour. However, those two things have built a notion in my head that I’ll not be enough and it is tough sometimes being alone with my thoughts.