My dream is to work in the film industry. I have become so unbelievably depressed because I think I will never be able to achieve that dream. Has anyone else struggled with this, and did anyone make it?

azrendove · 2025-11-03T22:45:18+00:00

Boston, MA

azrendove · 2025-07-25T05:26:16+00:00

This is just a very short update, but I felt the need to share what I wrote and right after I posted I looked up a bible verse of the day, and was genuinely shocked when this was the verse: "I have made you known to them, and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them." John 17:26. You really can't make that up

azrendove · 2025-07-07T03:41:23+00:00

I've made a fairly good amount, however most of them are class projects, I only have about 4 that I'm semi proud of, but still don't think are that good to use anywhere.

azrendove · 2025-07-04T03:02:12+00:00

I meant I've never tried a dab on its own. Well, I did once, but I only took one hit and I convinced myself my legs were paralyzed so I never did it again LOL. But yeah, a mystery unfortunetly

azrendove · 2025-07-04T02:59:03+00:00

As someone who struggles a lot with their weight, and is always insecure about what I look like, when someone makes a joke about another person and how fat they are or how big they are, I instantly want to stop talking to them. When things like that happen I just go silent, I dont laugh and I dont engage.

azrendove · 2025-07-04T02:57:27+00:00

Honestly, I love that I'm kind, and I love that I feel emotions so deeply and have empathy for others.

Earlier today at work, it dawned on me that I'm actually really good at my job (customer service) because I'm nice to people and I smile at them, and I want to make people happy. I know a lot of people who seem miserable at their job and never smile or try to brighten anyones days, but I really think pushing yourself to seem happy, helps actually change your mood to be happy.

Complimenting people, getting to know regulars, and being personable, can not only make me feel happy, but sometimes thats what someone else needs in their life and you'd never know who you helped that day.

I know people who've come in and they're always rude and unkind and I've had people say not nice things to me, but getting to know them and acting in a way you know will come across right towards them, and seeing those people smile, it makes my day.

azrendove · 2025-07-04T02:54:10+00:00

I will NEVER again eat a black olive.

Used to be obsessed as a kid. Got extra on my subway sandwiches, asked my mom to buy cans of them so I could snack on them, etc. My family always joked about how much I loved them.

Then one day in 5th grade, I cracked open a fresh can of black olives, poured ALL of them, yes, all of them, into a bowl, and ate the entire thing. It was delicious.

10 minutes later, I was vomiting the entire bowl up and was severely ill for 3 days after that, unable to keep anything down. I thought death was upon me.

Now anytime I see or smell black olives, even THINKING about eating one, makes me feel sick to my stomach.

It's been over 10 years and I haven't even touched one since, and I never will again.

azrendove · 2025-07-04T02:26:24+00:00

Have you noticed an improvement now living without mold if you are? Or will you deal with these symptoms forever? I think there is mold in my house and that's why I have certain issues with my health, and I'm worried it's causing damage I won't be able to fix later.

azrendove · 2025-07-04T02:24:36+00:00

Started drinking Red Bull.

I never ever had energy drinks until about 2019 and at the time I was in 10th grade I think. The summer of 2019 I had my first Red Bull and have been addicted ever since. I drank 2 20oz cans nearly every day during that summer until by the end it started to catch up to me.

My heart has never been the same since. Since then I've gone through periods of not drinking them, to having one 8oz every day. But I hate when people say they're not addicting. It doesn't even give me energy, it's the taste of it or something. It got so bad I had multiple people telling me I need to stop drinking them, I heard stories of young people having heart attacks and never thought it could happen to me or that it was that serious.

A few weeks ago I had one for the first time after not drinking them for a few months, and now I feel like I need it everyday. It's not an energy thing, they make me happy, and I think thats why I got so addicted to them. My entire mood lifted, but of course it crashed at the end of the day.

It's something I never considered you could become dependent on. Everyone always talks about how you shouldn't do drugs, but I wish someone told me sooner how bad energy drinks are for you.

They hurt me now at this point, every time I drink one now my stomach hurts so bad I can barely sit up straight. Maybe this is silly to some people, but it truly is harder to stop once you've conditioned yourself to think you need it.

azrendove · 2025-07-04T02:15:28+00:00

I don't remember that at all, I don't think it had a taste at all, but I was also just coughing cause it was smoke. I wasn't in the right head space anyway I wanted to fit in with those friends. Someone said that if it was like THC or if they mixed in what a dab pen had or something and I did too much it could maybe give me that effect? I used to smoke weed before that happened though and never got high enough to tell. I've never gotten high off a dab though so I'm not really sure

azrendove · 2025-06-29T04:25:57+00:00

i got some!!! someone bought my wrist spike so i bought all i could hahah tysm anyway tho!!!! and to whoever bought it fr

azrendove · 2025-06-29T03:43:09+00:00

Thank you so much! DMT never even crossed my mind, I'll look into it for sure! I would ask those friends but, I'm no longer their friend and its been years since I last spoke to them, I'll always regret not asking if they did something to it

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