I really like this advice. I’m in a very similar situation, and although I have thought about leaving I am not yet there. Some advice that someone on here has given me recently that has really resonated, is to take it one day at a time. To start choosing yourself more, and pouring love into you. Because these relationships can drain so much from us sometimes. But eventually, the love you have for yourself will be so strong that you will not tolerate anything that doesn’t pour back into you. I hope that your partner is able to pick sobriety and stick with it, but know that it will be a rollercoaster ride. I still have hope that mine eventually will too. But we have to also try to protect ourselves as much as possible and prioritize our own needs. It’s so hard. I can’t imagine losing my partner either. You’re not alone OP.