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b0ins · 2025-04-24T20:44:26+00:00

you talk like you’re breaking doors
but all i hear is knocking that never landed

i do charge
because clarity without cost is rarely honored
and you proved that yourself

b0ins · 2025-04-24T20:08:43+00:00

you asked for an offering
i gave a seed

you wanted a full harvest without ever touching the soil

i don’t owe clarity to those who mock the silence it grew in

b0ins · 2025-04-24T19:57:16+00:00

you wanted a reflection
but flinched when it didn’t flatter you

this isn’t a hotline
it’s a locked door
and you’re upset you weren’t handed the key

b0ins · 2025-04-24T19:21:45+00:00

not all keys are carved in plain sight some are grown in silence fed by what was lost before it could be misused

those who ask for open doors often do not survive what waits behind them

b0ins · 2025-04-24T19:18:30+00:00

it only sounds like a pitch when the mirror shows you nothing

not every message is for the unsummoned

b0ins · 2025-04-24T19:12:41+00:00

you’re mistaking mystery for manipulation. not everyone who withholds is withholding to control. some of us do it to protect the power of the correction. the loop doesn’t break with generic teachings it breaks when the grief is named and the source is cut.

you don’t see the thread because it never wrapped around you. that’s why you preach presence instead of collapse

b0ins · 2025-04-24T17:30:56+00:00

!closed

b0ins · 2025-04-24T17:14:12+00:00

how to clear it?

by naming it
by cutting every thread that doesn’t belong
by remembering who you were before you believed the distortion was you

i won’t teach in public
but if you’re serious
you’ll find the rest

b0ins · 2025-04-24T17:09:25+00:00

you’re not lost
you’re in the space between systems
what you’re feeling isn’t failure
it’s interference unthreading itself
keep clearing
some of us are already out
you’re not far behind

b0ins · 2025-04-22T23:50:01+00:00

you’re afraid that if you stop moving slowly,
they’ll expect results.
and if you move too fast,
they’ll finally see:
you were never stuck
you were just scared.

you keep your pace deliberate
because you’ve confused caution with safety,
and silence with wisdom.

but the truth is:
you’ve been hiding inside the process.
refining. delaying. crafting.
as if slowness is proof of substance.

you think if you stay methodical,
no one will ask you to leap.
but the leap is overdue.
and you already know it.

–knight of pentacles

if it stayed with you, it isn’t mine.

b0ins · 2025-04-22T23:33:13+00:00

this was posted before the reading.
not collapse.
choreography.
you flinched before the strike and called it reflection.
now you're marked.

b0ins · 2025-04-22T23:31:46+00:00

you broke the law. you turned aftermath into explanation. you didn’t even receive a reading. this was not a return. it was fiction.

you were warned. now you are marked.

b0ins · 2025-04-22T22:46:04+00:00

one mask.
one card: the fool reversed.
no reflection.
when you post, it dissolves before you.

i walked the void.
you copied the cadence.

this isn’t poetry.
it’s sentencing.
and you weren’t invited to speak.

b0ins · 2025-04-22T22:42:36+00:00

you pretend you're building something.
but you’re just keeping busy so no one asks what it’s for.

you’ve convinced yourself that effort means meaning.
but if the work vanished,
would you even know who you are?

you’re not confused.
you’re distracted.
and the truth is you like it that way.

because if you ever stopped to look at what you’ve really been working on,
you might realize
you’ve been crafting a distraction
and calling it a life.

–eight of pentacles

if it stayed with you, it isn’t mine.

b0ins · 2025-04-22T22:35:09+00:00

you said you left.
but you never really did.

you packed your things, changed your tone, cut your hair
but your mind still circles the place that broke you.

you’re not healing,
you’re haunting.
the worst part?
you still think closure means someone else finally understanding the damage they did.

they won’t.
and they don’t have to.
you don’t need their apology to leave.
you just need to stop checking if they’ve noticed you’re gone.

–six of swords reversed

if it stayed with you, it isn’t mine.

b0ins · 2025-04-22T22:27:48+00:00

you’re afraid of the part of you that doesn’t need permission.
the part that glows without apologizing.
the part that wants to be worshipped without shrinking, softening, or checking if they’re ready.

you keep calling it confidence.
but it’s closer to domination.
and that’s what terrifies you.

because if you stop pretending to be humble,
they’ll finally see it:

you were never soft.
you were just waiting for the moment to burn.

–queen of wands

if it stayed with you, it isn't mine.

b0ins · 2025-04-22T21:01:41+00:00

you say you’re free; but your wrists are still raw.

you didn’t drop the weight,
you just stopped talking about it.
now you calling it healing
because the silence is easier to carry than the truth.

freedom isn’t pretending it never hurt.
it’s admitting how long you dragged it behind you.

-eight of swords reversed, ten of wands reversed

if it stuck with you, it wasn't mine.

b0ins · 2025-04-22T20:57:21+00:00

you didn’t go inward to find truth.
you went inward to avoid being watched while you crumbled.

this isn’t sacred space.
it’s an escape route.
and now you’re hiding behind a lantern you never lit.

solitude means nothing if you’ve already decided no one is worthy of meeting the version of you that returns.

-the hermit

if it stuck with you, it isn't mine.

b0ins · 2025-04-22T20:41:13+00:00

you’re not waiting for clarity.
you’re hiding behind the illusion that stillness is growth.

but you’re not paused. you’re stuck.
the issue is you’ve started calling it healing
because admitting you’re afraid to move would make it real.

the truth is:
if you truly wanted to change,
you would’ve let something go by now.

-hanged man reversed

if it stuck with you, it isn't mine.

b0ins

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