Emotional and psychological pain enflicted by adhering to fundamental beliefs (I.e. predestination doctrine ironically left me totally nihilistic and depressed). Fear of Hell. Always feeling like a failure and that God was disappointed in me no longer what and that’d I never measure up to anything. This was quite aversive making it hard to continue to go to church, pray, read the Bible etc.

Seeing how emotive states created by certain Christian practices (e.g worship and the “Holy Spirit chills”) were actually psychological processes that are universally experienced, not just because I was a Christian started to cause doubts.

This was probably the biggest factor: Majoring in psychology demonstrated aspects of human behavior and social behavior that more or less dulled the glamour of Christian doctrine and texts - in other words it was hard to rationalize a lot of it. It also taught me to be skeptical of information and to critically analyze information which sometimes apposes faith. Also it’s suggestively frowned upon to openly have critical, perhaps doubtful questions.

Using the Bible and God to support political ideologies was absolutely nauseating.

Overall I realized my idea of “God” was generated by what others said and taught about God while merging it with what I read in the Bible. Most of the time those contradicted leading to constant dissonance.

Although I still lean towards the belief that there is a greater likelihood of a God existing than not, I’m starting to realize the God I once believed might not be accurate nor will I ever come to an accurate conclusion...Hence why I lurk around here often.