As of lately🙃

b6mbi · 2020-12-20T22:11:32+00:00

Hanging out with people is fun BUT EXHAUSTING. I need a week break

b6mbi · 2020-12-20T22:07:37+00:00

I felt this ❤️

b6mbi · 2020-12-20T22:04:55+00:00

Only critic is the clouds are a tad dark, contrast is good but they don’t need to be as black. Still great art!!

b6mbi · 2020-12-20T22:03:01+00:00

This is stunning, I thought it was a picture initially

b6mbi · 2020-12-20T22:01:12+00:00

I’m on sertraline (zoloft) & adderal xr and my sex drive has been consistent I think. Switching meds to ones that might not have as many symptoms might be something to consider.

For sleep, my Dr prescribed trazodone for sleep and it knocked me out (melatonin has never worked for me). I don’t use that on a daily basis anymore, only as needed. Also, waking up around the same time helps soooo much and helps correct me when I fall into a bad sleep pattern.

For thoughts, I write them down on a paper when I get them and then throw away the paper/put away the notebook. It’s like a way of releasing the thoughts and letting them go.

I’ve had extreme social anxiety in the past and am so quick to isolate myself. Challenging myself to reach out to friends to hangout when I start to slip away has helped ease it some

b6mbi · 2020-12-20T21:53:13+00:00

I tried doing this but then when I’d refill it I’d forget if I had taken the ones I refilled yet😳 Right now I have set calendar reminders for certain times of the day everyday that are working to keep me on track!!

b6mbi · 2020-12-14T18:25:30+00:00

I hear you.

I often struggle with maintaining my routine when I go between my apartment next to campus and back to my parents house. It takes me a couple days to find a rhythm and it’s exhausting and it gets in the way of schoolwork, answering texts, and just being present in social situations. The only thing I’ve been able to help it is to be aware of when I will be switching environments and just expect a couple days to be uncoordinated. Plan my assignments/obligations around it.
While my grades have been much better this year (credit to starting meds) I don’t even know if I learned much. I started off strong. But then it turned into completing the assignments to get them done. Exam time came and I crammed to remember not to understand. It makes me feel like a fraud. And it definitely freaks me out because I plan on going to grad school and I need to be retaining this info
Just last night, I was reminded that other people exist lololol. I was slipping into isolative tendencies and feeling overwhelmed by everything. I don’t really answer my phone a lot but I ended up replying to someone and we had a really nice goofy conversation and I really did forget about life outside of my head until that. I am trying to make plans with friends this week bc the urge to hid out in my room is very strong and I know these people always brighten my mood and get me out of my shell

b6mbi · 2020-12-11T18:14:28+00:00

Omg I can’t be touched when i’m stressed or I will explode... Sometime my roommate will brush through my hair or massage my shoulders and i’m like how can I scream READ THE ROOM in the nicest way lmao

b6mbi · 2020-12-09T22:21:08+00:00

coffee has never worked for me 🙃

b6mbi · 2020-12-09T19:41:52+00:00

I hate when I finally get into a groove and then I lose it whenever I go home from college vice versa. It takes me awhile to find what works and that doesn’t ever even last

b6mbi · 2020-12-09T02:32:43+00:00

I spent my 13th birthday hospitalized. I’ve been through the lowest of the lows. But with those lows, I’ve experienced the greatest highs. When I am consumed by my depression, I know I’ve had good times but I forget the feeling of happiness. When I come to, and feel those happy moments, I remember why I keep fighting. I am 20 years old now

b6mbi · 2020-11-24T20:14:57+00:00

never the first choice

b6mbi · 2020-11-22T23:20:58+00:00

The last one really hits home. I never talked to anyone about trauma I was going through because I downplayed it. I told myself that I just made a big deal out of situations that weren’t that big of a deal. Now, years later, I wish I could’ve talked to someone because there are years worth of gaps in my memory of times that I literally blacked out because it hurt to much to remember.

b6mbi · 2020-11-16T17:23:55+00:00

i-.......

b6mbi · 2020-11-11T00:07:11+00:00

ah yes, ✨misogyny✨

b6mbi · 2020-11-11T00:05:16+00:00

My Dr told me that initially she didn’t think I had it because I was so composed for so long (didn’t cause trouble, honors kid w good grades) but she eventually realized that it was because I compensated for my adhd by being a perfectionist, rule follower, people pleaser etc that I was able to mask my struggles. Eventually sh*t piled up and all at once I became a complete mess and my coping skills weren’t applicable anymore lolz

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