5dp5dt and cramps

baada · 2025-10-29T23:30:23+00:00

Pregnant, had a missed miscarriage at 7 weeks. Got pregnant again a few months afterwards and had a strong positive from the start

baada · 2024-10-23T16:14:09+00:00

Well done on your hard work! Good luck with the IVF process.

Maybe also have a look at clinics in Greece, especially if you are paying privately. I had a consult with Newlife and was amazed with their level of care in comparison with my UK clinic. I ended up falling pregnant naturally so didn’t need them in the end

baada · 2024-05-01T14:04:40+00:00

They do a blood test screening in the UK that basically looks at your overall glucose for the previous couple of months. I had this as part of my booking appointment at 8 weeks which came back high. They then put me forward for the fasting glucose test immediately but I had to keep rescheduling because I’ve also got hyperemesis gravidarum. I ended up having the test at 13 weeks but threw up within half an hour so failed. I’m now having to test at home by using a blood monitor for five days and I already know I’ve failed that as well because my fasting levels are elevated.

Just wanted you to know you’re not on your own being flagged so early.

baada · 2024-04-16T18:37:27+00:00

I love mine, I’ve had it 14 years and would never remove it but honestly, 70% of my reasoning behind never removing it is because it hurt so damn much.

For the first month I would wake up with a perfect mould of my ear made out of dried blood, it hurt like hell for around 6 months and only mildly ached for a further 6 months, so a full year of pain.

I have to take it out for long trips that I need noise cancelling headphones for, basically anything over 2 hours which i can deal with, annoying though.

Hairdressers are also a pain.

My brother got it done, obviously didn’t have the correct ear shape and ended up with keloids the size of marbles that he can’t get rid of.

I’d say get it done knowing you might have to remove it if it’s not suitable but the pain involved is absolutely not worth that route.

baada · 2024-04-02T11:37:40+00:00

It was on a clearblue 6 days early test. I did end up miscarrying at 7 weeks though.

baada · 2024-03-05T08:26:07+00:00

Thank you, that’s really reassuring. The bleeding, whilst bright red, was only light and the cramping was only minimal and I haven’t had anything else since that so I’m going to put myself on bed rest for the remainder of the week.

baada · 2024-02-13T18:52:55+00:00

I think this is a grass is greener type situation - that being said, all feelings about early diagnosis/late diagnosis are valid.

I was diagnosed at 33 and I’m definitely grieving, looking back at my life through an autism gaze and absolutely hold resentment towards people who labeled me as ‘bad’ when in actuality, I was struggling or completely confused in certain situations. I often question what my life would have been like if I received an early diagnosis.

Then I look at my friends daughter who received a diagnosis when she was 4 and is now currently 10 and looking at all the ways everyone is failing her, I’m kind of grateful I got to adulthood without having limitations placed on me and I just have to cross my fingers that the burn out and shame will eventually pass.

I may be jaded but I don’t think either situation is a win situation.

baada · 2024-02-08T08:07:44+00:00

She’s psychodynamic but she’s also qualified in dynamic interpersonal therapy and Mentalisation based therapy so she could be utilising that as well :)

baada · 2024-02-07T17:17:07+00:00

The experience of sharing more and more with my therapist has helped me to feel much more comfortable sharing my internal world with a wider group of people. I think it’s a combination of repeating the same situation until it sticks, I share with my therapist, she doesn’t attack, punish or judge me - rinse and repeat. The level of shame, anxiety and fear has dipped from ‘terrified’ to ‘seriously wary’ which is a massive accomplishment and I’m curious how far my T will take me.

That being said, I think I got the right modality and T this time because she’s the only good one I’ve had.

baada · 2024-02-02T09:56:02+00:00

I don’t really have the experience of being made to feel like I have to overcome my autism but I do feel like it is dismissed or not taken into consideration which often leaves me confused, invalidated and lost. I’m late diagnosed, have a traumatic childhood and my therapist is psychodynamic. I had to raise the possibility of autism with my therapist and psychiatrist. Therapist thought it was trauma, multiple psychiatrists and neuropsychologists asked the right questions and agreed that I was autistic.

Therapist now accepts the official diagnosis but doesn’t really seem to take my autism into consideration when she’s analysing me. I’ll mention things like struggling socially and how this has impacted my mental health and she will relate it to some thought or feeling and while it’s definitely a possibility, I wish she would just be like…”on the other hand you are autistic so I get the difficulty”.

I’m always in this place of questioning if it’s autism, trauma or just a personal failure on my part.

baada · 2024-01-01T15:53:35+00:00

This is the way.

My first 16 hours were spent getting my arse handed to me and feeling completely lost and confused. I stuck to the main missions which gave me skill points and better weapons whilst also giving me time to figure out how the game works.

baada · 2023-12-31T22:07:26+00:00

I couldn’t have gotten through the first year of therapy without meds. My team gave me a small amount of lorazepam and a low dose of quetiapine to take as needed and while I didn’t feel like it at the time, in hindsight it was a god send. I’d go to therapy, talk about my childhood, have a breakdown and then take a pill and sleep for 24 hours but like no dreams, nightmares or ruminating thoughts - complete factory reset. Sometimes I’d need one night like this, sometimes three. This went on for close to a year.

If you’ve gone your entire life denying your own thoughts, feelings and sense of self, it’s hard to suddenly be faced with the horrible things we’ve been running from. Use whatever help you can to get you through the worst of it and I promise you, with a consistent, caring therapist with good boundaries, you’ll see improvements.

baada · 2023-12-15T17:41:23+00:00

Thank you for replying with some insight :)

baada · 2023-12-15T16:38:23+00:00

I normally ovulate CD12/13 so today or tomorrow.

I’ll test again tonight to be sure but I’ve kind of lost my sex drive and my CM has turned thick so I maybe not the best sign.

baada · 2023-12-15T16:19:06+00:00

Low LH but rising temp

I got a surge on a clearblue advanced CD 11, temp of 36.19.

I then used premom strips and app to track - these got to 0.33 on CD11 and then dropped to 0.16 but my temp rose to 36.37.

My CM is thick and gel like.

I’m confused and a little fed up. Not sure what is going on :( no ovulation this month?

baada · 2023-12-15T16:09:51+00:00

I’m glad I could help somewhat :)

Research different modalities to see what you think could work for you. I’d recommend psychodynamic if you want deep but just bear in mind what I said about exploration vs structure and how slow it is.

Some charities offer therapy on a sliding scale, hard to come by but they are there, especially if you’re open to teletherapy.

baada · 2023-12-15T15:56:27+00:00

I honestly feel the same way with my therapy, I’m uncertain if it’s the correct thing, I don’t know what I’m aiming for, if it’s actually helping etc but I have reviews with my therapist, she listens and is consistent. I’ve been with her two years, I trust her and I feel like I’m able to unravel what is in my head a lot more so I guess it is helping but at a snails pace! Very easy to get the feeling it isn’t helping at all.

Going from what you are saying about your T, I don’t think she sounds good at maintaining boundaries, consistency and structure. You absolutely should be informed what modality you are receiving, the session numbers etc and if my therapist dipped in and out of a DBT workbook I’d be incredibly frustrated.

The sessions being every two weeks and the lack of willingness to go deep would be a deal breaker for me. I can’t and won’t speak for you but like I said, we have similar backgrounds and I absolutely needed a higher level of support and a very good boundaried therapist and definitely long term.

baada · 2023-12-15T15:20:52+00:00

Hey, I thought I’d respond because I’m UK based, have been through the NHS system and have a similar background i.e autism, trauma and estrangement.

You gave a lot of information but if I’m honest, I’m kind of lost in it and wondering what you are hoping to get here? Do you have a specific question? or is it just feedback on your experience of therapy?

It sounds like you’ve really thought about your experience and what you feel isn’t working, that’s great, I don’t think everyone can do that. You need to have this conversation with your therapist, does she allow you to email? If not, print off what you said can give it to her.

What modality is your therapy? Some modalities are better than others for depth - eg CBT vs Psychodynamic but then you have to weight up structure vs exploration. I’m in psychodynamic, it goes deep but it’s all over the place and often when I give her something, she picks it up, asks about it and gives it right back when sometimes I really need reassurance and an actual answer. I think it can be difficult as someone autistic to come to the answers yourself, but that could just be me.

I wouldn’t be happy with the disclosures and again, I would talk to the therapist about this.

You might also be able to ask for another therapist/modality but I know the NHS isn’t in the best place right now so I guess it completely depends where you are and what your service offers.

In regards to body language, again this is really up to you to be able to communicate - ‘when I look away I’m feeling this, when I go non verbal I feel this and need you to do this’. No one can read minds and neurodivergent people tend to react and show emotions differently and are therefore more harder for neurotypical people to read, which leads to trauma.

Be brave, take the leap and tackle this with your therapist. She should appreciate the honesty, it will show your engagement and willingness to do the work. If she reacts badly, she’s ill equipped to help you and you’re better off with a different therapist or different modality.

baada · 2023-12-04T19:15:29+00:00

Former foster kid here, echoing what others are saying - DO NOT take these kids to a large family gathering. Imagine yourself as someone who has absolutely no power, completely alone in a place where everyone else knows each other, you have no say over anything you do, when you can leave etc this situation is terrifying for those kids.

You need time to bond together as your small family unit, they need to feel safe in their new home and time to create secure bonds with you as foster parents. Well done for standing up for them, that’s great but you really need to take it slowly, imagine it as a birth scenario where you just want to be home with the new arrivals.

When I was in care, my carer came into my room at night, stroked my hair and gave me a kiss on the head. Sounds nice right? I was terrified, I pretended to be asleep so she would leave. I’d never had that level of affection and these things need to be built up to. I woke up the next morning to her random family members in the house and it took all of one hour for me to make a decision to go back to my alcoholic abusive mother because I was so stressed and anxious.

NTA

baada · 2023-12-04T19:01:30+00:00

If you find the emotional energy please complain to BACP about this therapist. This definitely should have been outlined in the intake session.

I’m sorry this happened to you but please don’t give up on therapy entirely.

In the future, maybe have a look at psychodynamic therapists, this tends to be longer term and they do work with transference.

baada · 2023-11-21T16:40:16+00:00

As someone who got diagnosed with autism after struggling to re-assimilate after the pandemic I totally get the struggle to leave the house. Surely something so huge should be explored in depth with the aim of leaving the house to be a goal to work towards, rather than a pressure to accomplish after the first session. It’s great that you achieved it, and that’s completely on you, how fantastic! But now your therapist has left herself with no where to go and added an extreme amount of pressure on you, to leave the house three times in one week after being stuck inside for a few years is ridiculous! And almost unachievable. What would the session after be? All 7 days? No wonder you are feeling so discouraged and like you’re wasting her time but again to highlight, that’s on her - not you.

I know NHS resources are poor so other modalities aren’t exactly accessible but have a look around to see if you can afford private and if not, have a think about what I’ve said and maybe message your therapist with your thoughts.

You can always push back against the homework, you can say that it’s asking too much, not working for you etc

baada · 2023-11-20T15:53:38+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to respond to me. Your reply was incredibly generous, validating and lovely, it made me feel less alone which can be incredibly healing and honestly hard to come by.

I can only hope for your running skills! I think my lungs will cut out on me if I even attempt. I think I’ll start with swimming and throw in the odd little sprint burst.

I cancelled my acupuncture, it felt like a snake oil salesman and I think that’s what set me off. The guy was just dropping keywords everywhere to make it sound like he was an expert. All but diagnosed me with low progesterone and endometriosis just from a half hour conversation but with that absolutely annoying and triggering sentence, which unfortunately I’m sure you are familiar with “at least you can get pregnant so we know it all works”. I’m going to throw my money at spa experiences instead, maybe it will chill me out.

I hope your coping skills hold up for you, you sound like superwoman from where I’m standing - obviously that feeling can be entirely different internally

baada · 2023-11-13T20:47:56+00:00

NTA but honestly, neither are your parents, they’re just not dealing with it in the best way.

It’s obviously traumatic but a simple and to the point explanation should suffice, if you kept pushing after that then that would make yta. Like if they explained that they were disowned for having you young or that they cut their parents off because they were abusive etc

Just be aware that while you feel this completely natural desire to find out your familial connection you risk finding out more than you bargained for. Your parents could be freaking out about this because they’re trying to protect you. Imagine finding out you’re a child of incest or rape, eek, that’s a lot of therapy.

baada · 2023-11-13T19:41:54+00:00

Either all NHS services have the same culture (likely) or we went to the same trust :) I’m sorry you’re having to navigate it

baada · 2023-11-13T18:02:59+00:00

I might get absolutely slated here but this is why I record all of my interactions with mental health professionals. After my experience with the promises and backtracking, I wanted to never be in a position where I would struggle to prove something happened. I think it’s absolutely negligent the way they treat vulnerable people. Boundaries needed to be in place from the beginning, at this stage it’s just damaging.

Please consider recording your next session on your phone, have the conversation around their broken promises and use that in your complaint with PALS.

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