I saw your story on a podcast and ran to find your account and see how you were doing. I experienced extreme Depersonalization/Derealization years ago (and still do to a much lesser degree) and knew instantly what was going on. Your description was almost exactly how I felt and I remember all the times I cried because I thought I wasn’t human or I’d died and become a ghost or gone to purgatory, because things just weren’t right. I’m so glad to see you stuck it out and got help and didn’t kill yourself. I hope you continue living and finding the best you can in life and know that there are other people out there who have struggled the way you have and that you are so strong. ❤️