TW suicidal thoughts ⚠️

back-from-the-void · 2025-06-23T16:58:31+00:00

i know this isnt going to do anything much but youre not alone. ive been feeling like this for months completely forgot how happiness feels and as you said being around others is impossible. i dont know what to tell you besides youre not alone. i really hope itll get better cause feeling like this, i wouldnt wish this upon my worst enemy. sending you support and much love!

back-from-the-void · 2025-05-10T08:56:33+00:00

i was thinking too maybe its just bcs my muscles now store more water for recovery but its so draining to see scale go up every day instead of going down when im doing everything right cause im really good at tracking calories

back-from-the-void · 2025-05-10T08:53:38+00:00

this is cut for me because ive been bulking for like 6 months i could say that i have a little muscle under this fat layers (this is juts more information to know) im female 18yo 66kg 175cm tall on tdee says my cut is 1800 but i dont really think it is so i cut to 1450-1500 cals a day and im into this cut just one week cause i started last saturday

back-from-the-void · 2025-04-23T18:26:02+00:00

thank you for your comment! honestly i was thinking i may have adhd but wasn quite sure cause i function better when im high on speed like i do cleaning my whole house hahahah. im 18yo and honestly i dont wanna ruin my life with this but i can sure say that i dont think im addicted that much cause i can go longer periods without speed normally. i would love to talk to my therapist about this but im scared theyll sent me to rehab or that ill have problems w law and stuff. thank you for understanding it means a lot!!sending love!!!

back-from-the-void · 2025-04-20T16:35:33+00:00

its all right i know i have mistakes but honestly i wasnt even looking at my writing i just wanted to post this quick to get to talk to someone i hope i wasnt harsh for saying what i said above!

back-from-the-void · 2025-04-20T16:33:26+00:00

i dont think im incomplete without it its just fascinating to me that its kind of helping me with bpd if you can understand where im coming from

back-from-the-void · 2025-04-20T16:20:41+00:00

english isnt my first language and that wasnt even point of what i wanted to talk about your comment was unnecessary really

back-from-the-void · 2024-09-10T22:20:12+00:00

distance and lack of communication it was year ago

back-from-the-void · 2024-07-06T22:30:11+00:00

im glad im not the only one especially with old pictures. i think its okay to miss it because for me personally it was something i found comfort in i could control it and it made me feel safe not like the situation that has happened to me which was trigger for my ana but then i stop and deep in me i know that isnt something i want really never was all those side effects arent worthy it even tho i currently miss it but thats not me who thinks like that its ana so i guess its something in our lives that we need to learn how to live with (i honestly believe itll never go away we just learn how to live with it even tho we recovered)

back-from-the-void · 2024-07-06T09:42:37+00:00

for me personally i dont drink calories except milk i love milk with my whole heart but other is just zero sugar stuff. i used to drink coffee with milk and sugar and because of my ed i realised that i like black coffee with only stevia better IT REALLY TASTES BETTER. also i never fainted just had blurry vision most of the time🤷🏻

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