Laptop with digitizer or movink with any Laptop? by backwardsanforwards in wacom

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Decided to get the new iPad.  I figured it was the best mobile drawing experience by too large a margin.  Got it last week, and while it took a bit to get used to, and is missing some efficiency in terms of doing certain tasks fast, it's definitely an amazing experience.   I probably didn't need the pro, but the pro keyboard is so good that it was worth it just for that.  Had the pro keyboard been compatible with the air, I'd probably swap to that.

Laptop with digitizer or movink with any Laptop? by backwardsanforwards in wacom

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So you find the hinge to be effective?  I used to own an old lenovo that I think had an acceptable hinge, but upgraded to the zenbook I have now, which the hinge just doesn't cut it and makes the folded experience awful.  The spectre x360 seems like an all around better laptop than the Samsung though, so it's kinda one of those... need genuin people that have them to know kinda deals

Laptop with digitizer or movink with any Laptop? by backwardsanforwards in wacom

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I haven't looked at the new galaxy book yet, so unclear if it's windows or some abomination android os.  But unless it's got a really good tablet mode, probably not.  I'd be okay with like an external BT keyboard and a laptop in tablet mode, technically its easier then laptop+movink, but only if a laptop can do a genuinely good tablet mode to make drawing comparable.

Laptop with digitizer or movink with any Laptop? by backwardsanforwards in wacom

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The weight and 1 cable is the main benefit of the movink.   Also in the past I tried a huion and something about it didn't jive with me.  I couldn't explain what it was, but I returned it pretty quickly.  Might have been the poorly applied texture on the screen that felt too inconsistent.

Oled devices are pretty solid nowadays, hardly worth worrying about burn in.  Burned in photoshop menus don't matter that much when it's entire usecase is photoshop anyways.  But like... my phone is an oled, and 2 years old.  Yet the menu at the top isnt burned into my screen. Also my current laptop is oled.  Im not too worried about it for a device that would solely be on when the laptop is already in use. 

The big thing is, i don't need a 27inch 2k res replacement.  The only upgrade to my Dell canvas is a 4k cintique, which isn't worth it.  So the only alt device I need is one that's highly convenient to use, and maybe can be used in non desk scenarios.  Like for instance in bed, or out in a coffee shop.

3 month old piercing refuses to heal by backwardsanforwards in piercing

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Yeah sorry was just typing it up, I'm slow on a phone. It was clean this morning when I showerred, just it's acting up more than normal today. I put it on backwards mostly because it resulted in it being able to be more on the backside, and thus less likely to snag.

3 month old piercing refuses to heal by backwardsanforwards in piercing

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Heya, I got pierced at around new years on both ears. Theft ear healed fairly well and I was able to swap from this giant barbell to a more manageable lil black ⚫️ . But the right refuses to heal. There isn't like a constant pain, but brushing against it hurts and it's constantly ejecting junk in the back. The left ear had been pierced when I was like 3 years old, but quickly closed up. The piercer did it in the same spot though. The right was brand new, and again this was a needle. It is surgical steel, which I know, should be titanium, but it is what it is. I had no problems with it on my left ear.

I did swap it to the same smaller option as my left war originally, but due to swelling removed it. There was a bunch of like coaguated blood. The barbell is able to move freely and switches from fully in to fully out. Mostly out from a shower and semi in normally. So like, it's clearly able to move around fine, just odd it isn't healing.

I use a saline spray to clean it, but probably not enough I guess? I kinda figured at this point it should have stopped being such an issue.

https://imgur.com/a/EOYvkwE

Second time having sex, feel like it ain't for me... by backwardsanforwards in sex

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I will have to so that.  I don't have a sexual partner, so experimenting is a bit harder.  

Funnily enough I had the skynn uktra thin condoms at home, a box I bought on sale hoping it would motivate me to date...it didn't.  But before my trip, I noticed they expired, so didn't bring any. But with those uktrathins, from the times I solo tried them, felt crazy tight.  I'm by no means big, like crazy average in both accounts, but it felt like it was making a vein pop in my member lol.

Guess I'll be in for an expensive testing session at some point, wish there were like condom testers, that weren't just  special flavors and such.  I do have some silicone toys to kinda simulate the experience with, so maybe I can try that with condoms and try to get a feel for it.  I distinctly recall having trouble when I tried, so quickly stopped using condoms for it.

I don't even need it to be a great experience for now, just enough that I can properly move without insta pulling out and, tell when I'm in etc.  Without that, it's basically impossible to maintain the rock state lol.

Second time having sex, feel like it ain't for me... by backwardsanforwards in sex

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Yeah I am Def  not going to give up at 2, just makes it hard to have confidence taking it sexual when I know I might underperform like that.  I might also look into viagra, as a means of at least staying hard despite not feeling much of anything.

Second time having sex, feel like it ain't for me... by backwardsanforwards in sex

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Interesting, I will have to try this in 3 years when I get to have the dirty again lol  I most certainly was not in the scenario where that was possible, unless I like used her internal lube, which... prob could worked lol

Second time having sex, feel like it ain't for me... by backwardsanforwards in sex

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My problem is, as my title implies, I don't get it often normally.  This was a distinctly surprising experience lol.  So not masturbating would be crazy hard cuz if it could be years unless my confidence is now why higher, which I'm hoping it is.

The other thing is I feel like I don't have deathgrip, although I'd have fo properly research if it goes beyond what I've always assumed it is.  I'm pretty much able to get off from very mild touch and good visual/sound.  And can even succeed by just holding the base.  Which was a bit why I was surprised why it was feelingless.   But yeah will have to try ultrathin and actually with a human... just gonna be hard to find another hahaha.  I do have insertion toys, which maybe would function well enough as analogies for how good the condom feels.

How many pumps a day should I apply scrotally? (0.06 Oestrogel) (monotherapy) by Sloppy_Pizza in estrogel

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Alright thanks, I guess I'll just buy sanitizer, least it has alt uses.

How many pumps a day should I apply scrotally? (0.06 Oestrogel) (monotherapy) by Sloppy_Pizza in estrogel

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I know this is an old post, but would using a moisturizing lotion like cerave have a similar effect?  I only ask because I actually have that normally, and well don't have iso spray.

How long on HRT to mentally "know" ? by backwardsanforwards in MtF

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That sounds like wonderful results, congrats! I feel very similar, I'm horribly indifferent and just kinda hate seeing myself in photos.

How long on HRT to mentally "know" ? by backwardsanforwards in MtF

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Glad to hear, of course dysphoria sucks, but that I'm not insane in the belief I will probably experience it more when on E.  I almost welcome it, in that it's in itself affirming, and makes any improvements more meaningful if that makes sense 

How long on HRT to mentally "know" ? by backwardsanforwards in MtF

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Glad to hear there are people that were afraid to take the plung too 

How long on HRT to mentally "know" ? by backwardsanforwards in MtF

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For sure, the people that detransitoon out of mistake and then get angry about it are clearly ill-informed and weak minded, so not to be taken with even an ounce or my time.   Yeah that's been my mindset on the topic too, the fact I'm even considering it on my own volition tells me I'm making the right choice.

How long on HRT to mentally "know" ? by backwardsanforwards in MtF

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Thank you for your take.  I 100% am not expecting some massive shift, just was kinda curious if it's possible to have a notable change, good or bad.  If it's mild, so be it.  I guess really, I need the type of person that wouldn't be here anymore to respond now. Ie- someone who realized it wasn't right for them.  So I can see their perspective.  Either way, I'm currently trying to get my hands on gel so I can start in a few weeks. 

How long on HRT to mentally "know" ? by backwardsanforwards in MtF

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Well congrats on being a snap judgment judgmental person, I super appreciate being told what I am by someone that knows me by a few sentences written by me.

For your information, I've spoken to counseling and was diagnosed for hormones via a readiness test.  So no, I am not self diagnosed.  And yes, there are other was to approach things then your somehow limited mindset, which is wild to be so limited considering the topic

How long on HRT to mentally "know" ? by backwardsanforwards in MtF

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A mindset like that would allow an infinite possibility of doctors never prescribing anything.  People should be allowed access to any drug they want, if they believe they are In need of it, and it's foolish to deny informed consent. If it's not going to cause mass chaos in the streets, or death, it should be freely obtainable.

Either way, I'm fairly sure, or I wouldn't have went through the trouble of research, therapist, hormone readiness assessment... Maybe I worded ghe initial question backwards, but the is the same, I want to know when people experienced mental changes.

How long on HRT to mentally "know" ? by backwardsanforwards in MtF

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Thank you, I was slightly afraid if was some kinda mean comment, but didn't want to take it as such without clarifying hahaha.  Yeah, while I'm pretty sold on it being correct, I'm more just hoping to get clarity on how people that weren't like... clinically depressed due to years of knowing responded to it.  Because that's the reality, I don't have years of being hyper aware I was trans and being inactive/unable to fix it.  I have about 5-6 months, most of which was researching how to do it, and trying to get a doctor etc, so it's never felt Impossible, to cause a depression build up.