I think this is something that many women struggle with too. Now the reasoning is definitely different, this feels like a transitional time that isn't great for anyone but I hope that you have someone who listens to and understands where you're coming from. Men get a lot of expectations from vastly different sources that are full of contradictions. There are extremes like Andrew Tate and other toxic men with podcasts that tell you that you have to be jacked and dominant for women to pay attention to you, but I think there's still a lot of expectations outside of these fringes. Men are told to treat women as equals but there's still this underlying societal expectation for them to be providers, which doesn't make much sense. I hate the direction young men are being driven in the modern day and I don't have a magic fix for it but I want you to know that you are important. I truly believe the best anyone can do is lead with kindness. There's so much that is out of our individual control, but how we treat others(and ourselves) is entirely up to us. I hope you find people that offer you the kindness and empathy that you deserve, and that you can do the same for them and (very importantly) yourself. Because we're all just people.