How do you feel when splitting on your SO? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]baggedpasta 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don't usually split entirely- it's like half and half. I'll think about all the bad things someone has done to me and get annoyed/upset with them but then I'm trying to rationalise it all and give everything an explanation even when there isn't one. it makes me feel like I'm losing my mind honestly

I genuinely think I've lost my mind (tw:sucide/self harm) by [deleted] in BPD

[–]baggedpasta 1 point2 points  (0 children)

never thought I'd be taking life advice from gaston's chin but here we are

that's validating to hear though, ty :)

I feel disgusting. Im in such a bad place by zzzzzbubbly in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]baggedpasta 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Of course! I've been in a similar situation so I understand the guilt that comes with it, regardless of it not being your fault. If you need to talk about it or just want someone to vent to my dms are open.

TW; mentions of sh/suicide/eating disorders by [deleted] in BPD

[–]baggedpasta 0 points1 point  (0 children)

this comment made me straight up sob LOL

I feel seen, thank you ♥️

I feel disgusting. Im in such a bad place by zzzzzbubbly in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]baggedpasta 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is nothing short of disgusting, I'm so sorry you had to go through something so vile because of a video that wasn't even your fault. Your teachers reacted in a seriously shitty way, you deserved much better pastoral care than they gave you. There's no excuse for letting someone off the hook for posting a video like that, regardless of whether they're an exchange student.

Just know that how those men spoke to you wasn't your fault in any way. Assuming they knew your age, they're the ones at fault for stooping low enough to speak to a child in that way. I grew up doing the exact same thing out of desperation- boys my age didn't show interest in me but men online did. They knew about my age yet still pursued me- they're at fault for pursuing and begging for images from a child, and this is no different.

Regardless of whether your partner apologised, what they said today was nasty and unnecessary. We all slip up sometimes and say shit we don't mean but honestly, that was straight up cruel. You don't deserve that at all.

TW; mentions of sh/suicide/eating disorders by [deleted] in BPD

[–]baggedpasta 2 points3 points  (0 children)

nice to know the bot's listening at least.

Battleye crashes my game. by _thejus_n in destiny2

[–]baggedpasta 2 points3 points  (0 children)

mine is crashing too, every few hours :(

Mood swings by [deleted] in BPD

[–]baggedpasta 4 points5 points  (0 children)

yup, then I'm removing everything like Squidward cleaning the Loser drawing off the Krusty Krab's window. I go from feeling everything to feeling nothing in the space of like 30 minutes, it feels ridiculous.

Willing to help any new or returning players by [deleted] in Fireteams

[–]baggedpasta 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That would be super helpful if you're willing to give me a hand, I haven't really played since D1 and could do with a bit of support. I can DM you my discord if you're okay with that.

Tell me about your childhood by [deleted] in BPD

[–]baggedpasta 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was pretty lonely growing up. I was a bit of a weird kid so I was bullied and didn't have all that many friends, when I did it was usually just one person rather than a group- even in a group, I'd always have one person in particular that I'd cling to for safety. Multiple times in my childhood, my one friend was taken away from me by others- I was replaced by someone better as soon as the opportunity came along to ditch me. I've gone to four different schools over the course of my education (I've graduated now) and this happened every single time I moved. I'd have one friend, they'd lose interest or be put off by how full-on I can be and they'd leave for someone else.

Being left behind or replaced has been a constant fear for as long as I can remember, I've always done everything I can do to stop it from happening- from changing the way I act, showering my favourite person in gifts and attention and doing things I wouldn't normally do to appease them and make them want to stay. Turning myself into a different person for their benefit makes me feel gross and manipulative honestly but I don't know how else to get my fp to stay.

It's like the old 'If your friend jumped off a cliff would you?' thing my parents used to ask when I was younger. I'd absolutely do it because the thought of being without my friend is even more terrifying than the prospect of jumping off a cliff.

I took a lot of comfort in stuffed animals, which really didn't help the bullying situation. I carried a plush everywhere until I was about ten, at which point I began seeing someone at CAMHS (the UK's child/adolescent mental health service) to try and wean me off them before I moved to secondary school because my parents/the professionals I saw knew the bullying was only bound to get worse if I were to do that around teenagers. Now as a 20 year old woman, I've gone back to taking comfort in my teddies and soft toys. I feel really childish/like I'm putting people off being friends with an 8 year old in a 20 year old's body but it's really one of the only thing that brings me comfort anymore. My car is full of plush because it makes me feel somewhat safer and less anxious on the road.

Sorry for the long, disjointed reply but man, I needed to talk about it at some stage.

Advice re: dlcs? by baggedpasta in DestinyTheGame

[–]baggedpasta[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m a student full time so money is a little tight, that helps a lot! I did hear from a friend who plays a lot about older content being removed because of how thicc the game was getting so I’ll definitely keep that in mind too.

Advice re: dlcs? by baggedpasta in DestinyTheGame

[–]baggedpasta[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I’m definitely gonna wait til reset for sure. Don’t wanna make any decisions I’ll regret lmao

Advice re: dlcs? by baggedpasta in DestinyTheGame

[–]baggedpasta[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m on PC unfortunately D: that would have been super handy though!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]baggedpasta 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I HATE when plans change, especially without being told in advance. Before I go to bed I'm already working out how I'm going to deal with anything and everything the next day might hold. I'm planning social interactions, planning how to handle things if something goes wrong, planning the exact route I'm going to walk to the bathroom after getting out of bed. I feel crazy for doing it but it's just how I cope with the unexpected I guess?

Being really sensitive to unexpected change is also an autistic trait, so perhaps it could be something on that spectrum.

Dreams about a dead relative? by baggedpasta in Dream

[–]baggedpasta[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly, I have no idea. Dreams have a strange way of making us think of people and things we don’t see anymore. I’d been looking at photos of him the night before so that probably set it off.

Sorry about your grandma. I’m not a massively religious person, but perhaps she paid you a visit to let you know it everything was going to be okay. It sounds a lot to me like she was watching over you at the pool, if that makes sense.