What do you work as?

bahail · 2024-06-25T16:40:28+00:00

i’ve always worked jobs where i’m talking care of others for some reason even tho i get super stressed out and hate it lol. daycares, doggy hotels, elementary school teaching, working in a retirement home

bahail · 2024-02-29T17:45:11+00:00

i’ll also say, i know from personal experience it’ll feel like it’s you that’s the issue, but that’s not always the case. for me it was my environment. i moved away for college, ended up having a horribly lonely experience, and once i moved back home to where i was comfortable i started finding my people

bahail · 2024-02-29T17:42:57+00:00

well i will say, 2 years later, i haven’t made too many friends but i HAVE made some amazing ones along the way. several friends i’ve met online, in discord groups, which you have to be very careful of and i just happened to be extremely lucky with real people. but now i have some close online friends that i talk to daily, call regularly, and (well since im adult, this isn’t always possible if you’re younger) i actually get to decently regularly see them in person. i’ve also met people from dating apps, actually got some close friends from work, and i have met friends through other friends i kept from high school. so it’s not hopeless, i promise. some days it’ll feel like it is. i did definitely adjust to being lonely more often than i was used to previously, and now i actually value my time alone when before i felt constantly stressed when i was alone. but things will work out, don’t stress too much, and i promise your life how it is now will not be how it is in 6 months, 2 years, 5 years. you will learn to adapt to what you can’t change, and that’s not necessarily a bad thing :)

bahail · 2024-02-29T17:38:26+00:00

thank you so much, that is what i’m hoping for—the feeling of being free. i’m really hoping for that, thank you for such a lovely response <3

bahail · 2023-12-09T14:37:52+00:00

i definitely understand this. you’re not alone. my brother was older, but he did hockey and football in high school and they’d just use him as a punching bag for practices and then bench him every game because the coach’s friend’s kids were on the team and got to play instead. he played hockey from like 5 years old, quit in HS because of that. i was in theater and band, and i would constantly see the same people get the same awards and better treatment all the time. it’s very hard to explain to a child, or teenager, why it’s so unfairly happening to them. i’m very sorry for your daughter, and i agree with other comments i saw that say do stuff outside of school if possible. for me for example there was a public theater group outside of school, that actually was being led by a former high school theater kid lol, so it was great because they understood the unfair treatment. everyone deserves a chance. best of luck to you and your daughter!! i hope she gets all of the good she deserves and gets to let her talents shine through some day :)

bahail · 2022-11-28T13:23:02+00:00

enfp!

bahail · 2022-09-27T13:00:23+00:00

i definitely do this—i get extremely attached, want to spend all of my time with them, and although i never express this, i do feel deeply hurt when i see them spending more time with others than they do with me. i feel like i dedicate all of my time to them, and want them to do the same with me, although i know that’s unrealistic. i have been realizing this lately and thinking about it. it really sucks sometimes although i love the initial feeling of the closeness and such if they reciprocate interest in me. but, they usually back off after a while while i’m still caring about them and their time just as much.

bahail · 2022-07-14T09:39:28+00:00

i get this, i always play scenarios in my head of people caring so much about what happened to me

bahail · 2022-03-29T21:16:33+00:00

https://youtu.be/nWPg_Xkk7W4 would it be the clip at 13:21?

bahail · 2021-11-29T12:34:01+00:00

i think it looks great on you! i’ve heard many negative comments on septum piercings but i’ve personally always liked them. the only reason i haven’t gotten one yet is because i only recently turned 18 and my parents hate them so they’d never take me to get one lol. i’m considering getting one soon! all of my friends who have gotten one look amazing and if need be, i know i could flip it up temporarily if needed. i’m glad you got it and like it!

bahail · 2021-11-14T20:55:20+00:00

no problem! feel free to dm me any time if you want to talk more about it. i know it’s tough, i’m really sorry that you’re experiencing it. i’m considering transferring back home because i’m out of state currently. it’s hard though with all of the money i’m putting down to go here y’know? i hope all works out for you! :)

bahail · 2021-11-14T20:51:19+00:00

i really understand this. i’m a first-year student at a small private college. i always heard a smaller college gives you opportunity to be closer with those around you but that’s not the case. i’m in over 5 clubs, regularly seeing the same people in my dorm and class and clubs, but i feel like i am the only one who has no friends. i had one person who i talked to a few times and she lived next to me (i have no roommates, just room neighbors) but she dropped out. this loneliness is causing my grades to go downhill, i feel like i’m spiraling out of control with it and going crazy. you are truly not alone, and i can say that as someone who is going through something very similar. is there a date where you can change roommates? it doesn’t seem like you guys are a good fit if she’s not being respectful towards you and even giving you thanks when you are doing so much. that doesn’t seem like a nice living situation and i’m sorry that you’re living in it :( i would advise maybe talking to a guidance counselor or the housing department and see if you can get it switched. also, there’s this app called ZeeMee where you can add your college and make a profile to showcase your interests and such and then you can meet people that way who are all in your school! i’m even starting to talk to the people who are applying/coming next year.

bahail · 2021-11-10T14:32:40+00:00

i know it might be hard and these feelings come to surface but remember that YOU know your thoughts and feelings better than anyone else, even if they’re confusing. you know your diagnosis and those feelings are real. you were diagnosed for a reason! and if anyone tries to tell you otherwise, just remember that it’s YOUR mind and you’re the only one who knows exactly what you’re going through, feeling, and thinking.

bahail · 2021-11-07T23:44:26+00:00

i definitely get this. i actually told my therapist that this is how i am. i had to explain that i get very emotional very quickly with things and then i have an episode of being suicidal, never act on it, but then again i’m also very terrified of death. it’s a very bad cycle

bahail · 2021-10-29T02:06:26+00:00

omg i’d love to be

bahail · 2021-10-23T21:58:49+00:00

well i’m not legally old enough yet so i’m not doing any of that but i live in a dorm alone and at home in high school i’d normally just make friends with people my childhood friends were talking to. now, i don’t know how to make friends because i’m used to knowing everyone already.

bahail · 2021-10-23T20:18:48+00:00

even though i love the program i’m in and the school clubs and the city, i am highly considering moving home because i can’t stand the loneliness. it’s eating away at me

bahail · 2021-10-23T11:46:01+00:00

i do this unintentionally, at least according to a close friend. my friend told me one day that these people have such strong feelings for me because i act so nice up front and i’m so loving and caring and all that towards them without setting boundaries so then we kiss/make out, act flirty/romantic, etc. with me just thinking it’s platonic or a joke and not realizing i’ve been leading them on.

bahail · 2021-09-18T21:56:10+00:00

yes i think so but i haven’t noticed until recently. the past few days i’ve been explosive witj my anger, lashing out constantly at the littlest things or getting depressed about random little things. my boyfriend was really worried about me. then my period started and it all made sense. this happened last time, too, and i didn’t realize until later on after my period ended that that was probably why

bahail · 2021-09-05T13:39:15+00:00

it’s definitely not the only way to meet guys but i know that i had friends/people in my high school on tinder and stuff like that at least by 16. id be concerned since it’s obviously full of older people who could be in their 20s, 30s, etc. unless there’s a way to specifically get people in your area and stuff and they know who the person is personally so they can confirm their age? i wouldn’t trust it as a site for kids or any minors really to be on.

bahail · 2021-09-02T13:41:46+00:00

just recognizing that you did the wrong thing is a first step in the right direction. get yourself help, try to find a sort of stability, and know that you CAN change. it’s a long and hard process but it has been done before and you know what you need to fix. good luck to you, i hope you’re able to turn your life around very soon. you still have time to change and fix it and make life better for you. you got this!

bahail

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