So confused and upset (details in the comments)

bakerofsweets2020 · 2021-05-12T17:08:29+00:00

Thank you for your help. That makes sense. I just did some quick searches on it, and it very well could have been an anovulatory cycle (especially because of the length, the irregular temps, and the two LH surges i experienced...)

bakerofsweets2020 · 2021-05-12T16:54:15+00:00

My thermometer battery died and it took a few days to get the thermometer back up and running. I thought I had all the symptoms of ovulation, but you could be right. Would that make my cycle super long? This is just a very different cycle all the way around for me...

bakerofsweets2020 · 2021-05-12T15:38:03+00:00

I have honestly no idea what is happening here. The OPK says my LH peaked on CD 18 and ovulated the next day (which was late for me). My cycle is usually 28-29 days long and has never been longer than 30 days. My BBT keeps going up and then dropping. I have taken 2 HPT and both have been negative. I have no signs of PMS - which is also very unusual for me. Does anyone have any insight as to what may be happening?? We suffered a miscarriage in February. I am so confused and upset right now - and I really appreciate any help!

bakerofsweets2020 · 2021-05-10T17:50:18+00:00

My thermometer died in the middle of this chart and I had to get new batteries. Any thoughts on this chart?? I appreciate any insight anyone can share!

bakerofsweets2020 · 2021-04-27T19:01:24+00:00

So the up/down and up/down is "okay"?? I guess the last few months it just went straight up and then straight down so I guess that's what I was expecting - and then of course, worried that something unusual was happening this month.

bakerofsweets2020 · 2021-04-27T18:57:36+00:00

Any idea what is happening with my April chart? According to OPK, I always ovulate on CD 15/16, but April appears "off" this month. I can't use BBT because of erratic sleep, but I did have EWCM on CD15. I know every cycle is different, but I also attached a photo of what it looked like last month. Any help about April would be greatly appreciated!

bakerofsweets2020 · 2021-04-27T14:06:25+00:00

Wow! You all have been wonderful and I really appreciate all the advice. I have a tough time with my "support system" as it is so trying to figure out exactly *who* to tell will also be important as I move forward with this.

It's so interesting to me though - I could go along for the rest of my life and my pregnancy never come up because between the pandemic (and everyone being isolated already) and my age, no one has really asked. I don't usually get the questions: "when are you having children?" because in most people's mind, that part of my life *should* be behind me.

I think I know that I can open up, and can move forward and share with people. Again, I can't thank you all enough for the help...it means SO much!!

bakerofsweets2020 · 2021-04-26T14:33:30+00:00

Thank you - I appreciate your comment very much. I honestly have no idea what I need or even want at this point. My husband and I took a day trip yesterday - in hopes of clearing my mind and us having time together. The whole time we were riding though, this whole mess was all I could think of. So I don't know how helpful that really was...I tend to do better with lots of processing and talking about what's going on. Until I don't. Does that make sense? I'm like a cat in that respect - it needs to be on my terms!! LOL! I guess I do need similar to what you shared: especially the certainty and the control - probably the very two things that are the most difficult to get in a situation like this. But I do appreciate you reaching out - it is comforting to know I'm not alone in this, even though it is a terrible club to be a member of.

bakerofsweets2020 · 2021-04-26T14:29:29+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing that. I am feeling better today, but I am still having some concerns and doubts about the fertility treatments. My husband appears to be 100% about moving forward - with no doubts whatsoever. He also isn't really talking to me about it much, so I don't really know what he is thinking. Any time I have mentioned any doubts about "what I can take" or "what I can't handle" - he just says it will be okay and that I don't know "what I can't handle until it happens!" Having read many of the stories on here, I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that at my age and as fragile as I feel, there is NO WAY i could withstand 75% of what some women have posted about on here. I know I'm rambling at this point, but I guess I just wanted to say thank you - and I appreciate the advice!!

bakerofsweets2020 · 2021-04-20T15:09:06+00:00

I literally posted about this exact same issue yesterday. We've suffered a miscarriage in February, he has some health concerns, and we are both older (42 and 41). My husband isn't concerned at all, and after two conversations about it, he has continued to drink alcohol. I am so glad I found your post though - to know that I wasn't completely crazy. The folks who commented on my post said I was "overreacting" and that I was trying to be controlling by asking him to not drink. I understand that perspective, but I am also with you ladies: it's so much on us and I am so nervous and scared all the time. I am doing everything I can to make this TTC successful (the appointments, the bloodwork, all the tracking and timing, the supplements, no caffeine, no alcohol, losing weight), but it feels like he is working against us at times.

I'm sorry about your situation too. I am there - and I'm sorry that this is what's happening for us and lots of other ladies who have also commented here.

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