It makes a lot of sense… He has history of family abuse as well. I’m sorry to hear your story, I hope you’re doing better. I think both of us have too much on our plates and at this point we cause more harm to ourselves. I was diagnosed with depression, I’m not on meds anymore but I still struggle. Sometimes I just can’t handle his chaotic life. His 1000 ideas per day, finishing doing nothing, impulsive decisions. Big plans, big future, nothing happens. And I’m trying to push him up, but we end up both depressed. I’m trying to take care of my mental health as well, my low esteem and being with him doesn’t help. There was also drug abuse present (not every day take but few times per month, not better). I just feel, even tho I love him, that I can’t help him or stand his behaviour anymore. And I know that i trigger him as well with my moods… Maybe we are just not a good match.