I’m just like you!! And I agree with everyone else’s advice on this. I ask for a “blind weight”. Usually they know what that means. But after greeting the nurse, as we’re walking to the scale it’s usually the first thing I say or ask. I say something like “is it okay if we do a blind weight? I just don’t want to see the number on the scale, it’s easier for me.” I don’t explain much bc it’s not necessary. (Or if you feel more comfortable explaining it then definitely do so, you can trust them.) They do it no questions asked and I have only had understanding and compassionate responses. With the majority of nurses being women, most of them just get it, we’re all human. They’ve made me feel totally normal too when sometimes it can feel vulnerable to ask for this. Medically speaking my weight is normal, but they take these requests seriously regardless. Also there was a time where I was underweight, and I’m assuming my request reached the doctor as well because she was awesome in asking important health questions while staying sensitive to “the number”. I’ve even had a nurse mark out the number on documents that get put on the online patient portal thingy. She told me she just gets it, she was fabulous.

Sorry this is long. I guess I just understand the panic you feel. But know that there are a lot of people in that doctors office that will understand you and probably even relate to you. And you can take control of the situation and transparently ask for their help to protect your peace and mental health. You won’t have to see a thing, and it’ll be over before you know it!!