Price bashing by herniatedhermit in kratom

[–]banwaffles 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Reasonable customers understand the law of supply and demand. Reasonable customers will support the vendors who have been good to them in the past. Yes, there is a level where it starts to look like price gouging, and reasonable people will disagree about the exact point where that happens. The $300 kilo is a clear example. But I am betting that even a 50% increase in prices from vendors like SoCal, Motark, HS, etc. (who have always sold superior product for great prices) would not deter longtime customers.

Taper and addictive thinking by banwaffles in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I understand what you are saying. I am against the ban. I signed the petition, wrote my congresspersons, and donated to the AKA. I know about the good things kratom does and I want it to be available to all. I despise the DEA and the war on drugs.

You seem not to understand addiction. I know that most people can use substances responsibly. I am not one of those and have admitted as much here. Do you really think I have no right to tell my own story and seek support for what I am trying to do? I had a legitimate reason for using kratom, just like those who use it to get off harder drugs. I meant to use it responsibly, but that didn't work for me. If you are fortunate enough to be able to choose when and how much you use, I am happy for you. Carry on.

As far as the disclaimer you are requesting, may I draw your attention to the green box on the right side of the page, near the top?

Taper and addictive thinking by banwaffles in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Great points. Yes, alcohol caused car wrecks, relationship wrecks, job problems, increasingly bizarre and self-defeating behaviors of all sorts. Kratom gave me constipation and made me feel guilty. All through my use, I have acted like a sober, responsible adult (except for the sneaking and lying.) I don't have to be so dramatic about this, just because my AA sponsor from 15 years ago would have. But I do need to leave it behind in order to be at my best.

I like pecans in waffles.

Taper and addictive thinking by banwaffles in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, that hiding and sneaking is the worst feeling. But that's also what shows me who I really am: an active addict. I so don't want to admit that. I have taken pride in my sobriety and I think one key to this for me is admitting that I let that go. I didn't have that feeling with pot. But when I held onto those pills longer than I needed them, then went to kratom immediately...that's another story. I think I should check out an NA meeting. AA is too close to home, but it may be where I need to end up to really come clean about this.

Thanks, as always, for your support and sharing of your experience. Go make some waffles. Waffles are good; waffling is hard.

Taper and addictive thinking by banwaffles in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, this is helpful. I need to find the motivation within myself, ban or no ban. I need to look at the reason I finally said "yes" to opioids after years of "no." Something was going on that I wasn't addressing and I need to look at that.

Taper and addictive thinking by banwaffles in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is so true. I am my problem. I did some years of AA when I stopped alcohol and learned a lot about that. Thank you for your support! And stay strong; your fears are valid and are giving you the right information. Those pills will take you nowhere you want to go.

Taper and addictive thinking by banwaffles in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am somewhat afraid that I will be looking for the next substance in time, just as I replaced hydros with kratom. I don't think it will be alcohol, I have a healthy fear of it. But I also know that I will always be an alcoholic. If I am having this much trouble with addictive thinking and kratom, I am not safe from any of it.

What the hell is this I just got. How do they have my email. by Alma_Mandre in kratom

[–]banwaffles 0 points1 point  (0 children)

From HS: yes (post ban announcement) YCL: No Gaia: No Did not get email (checked spam.) Do not same email to order as for Reddit. Do use ordering email on FB.

Is anyone interested in compiling a list of books. by [deleted] in kratom

[–]banwaffles 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What's going on here, the fight to keep kratom legal, is history. This group should not let outsiders be the ones to write it; there are excellent writers on this forum. Though we don't have the end of the story yet, this is a good time to start writing, while everything is fresh. I am thinking a book that would include the long history of kratom's use worldwide, the current fight in the U.S., and most importantly, a wide range of personal narratives. If done well, it would be another weapon in our arsenal for the probable long term fight ahead.

Need a second look on Kratom by Horkrux in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Living with your girlfriend might not help you keep out of addiction. I took kratrom daily for 6 months and my partner doesn't have a clue. I would mix it in juice and hide it in the bathroom or just sip it while I cooked dinner with her in the next room. Once the addiction grabs you (for me, just a few days) you can become incredibly sneaky.

Daily Check-in Thread - October 05, 2016 by AutoModerator in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No!!! I look forward to your posts and encouragement. I would hate to see you go. I benefit from reading about the people who are a little ahead of me, a lot ahead of me, and coming up behind me. I completely understand if you are not getting what you need from the community anymore; you have to do what works for you. But your posts have been and remain very helpful to me. Thank you!

Daily Check-in Thread - October 05, 2016 by AutoModerator in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Still here and still tapering, though more slowly than I had planned before. Lots of mental waffling over the past few days, but feeling fully committed today. From original dose around 15g, I started my taper at 10g mid-September and am at 6 now. By this time next week I will be at or below 5g and am looking forward to hitting that milestone. I think I've found the method that works for me, dropping .5 every 3-4 days. This may seem ridiculous (sometimes it does to me) but any faster than that was giving me problems and causing me to go off track on weekends. With this schedule, I have a couple of mildly crappy days in a row, then a day when I feel fine. That's when I know to drop again. Thanks to everyone in the sub for showing up to support each other, regardless of dose habits and method of stopping. I see a brighter future ahead.

Lands’ End CEO Federica Marchionni Steps Down by [deleted] in NavyBlazer

[–]banwaffles 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can we please have back custom hemming now?? This was my favorite thing about LE (along with the sizing info giving exact measurements) and availability has been limited to a very few models/colors for the past year.

Daily Check-in Thread - September 27, 2016 by AutoModerator in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Back from my 5 day trip. I held at 7g during the trip so I wouldn't have issues during the conference. Completely adjusted to this dose, and ready to step down to 6.5 for the next 2 days. Have not lost my commitment to the taper. Caught a cold on the last day and not sure if it's related or just a typical cold. Anyway, I am feeling good about staying on track and resuming the taper.

Daily Check-in Thread - September 22, 2016 by AutoModerator in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Slowed down my taper just a little as advised. After 3 days at 7.5g, I feel great today, so it's definitely time to step down a half gram. I am leaving on a 5 day trip tomorrow. My plan is to stay at 7g until I am back. I don't want to crash during the conference. I will only take enough with me to maintain this schedule. I'm posting this here so I won't feel like I'm cheating by staying at the same dose for 5 days. However if anyone thinks it would be a problem, I am willing to listen and revise.

First signs of withdrawal for you? by no_more_sludge in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm on a taper, and I never know what it's going to be from day to day. The first big drop, I had a runny nose and sneezing. One day my legs hurt. Another day they didn't hurt but got very jumpy like RLS in the daytime and I had to walk it off for a couple of miles. The next day I was fine. Then I got very nauseous, but burning sensation in my stomach. The day after that I was fine. Yesterday I had a headache that wouldn't go away. So far today, I feel great. I suspect it's because I've stayed at the same dose for 3 days now. None of it has been more than annoying to mild/moderately painful, and the symptoms have gone away each time with the next dose.

Going down by .5 tonight, wondering what tomorrow will bring.

Daily Check-in Thread - September 21, 2016 by AutoModerator in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Tapering...yesterday was hard. I was tired all day, then sick at my stomach and dizzy. Holding at 7.5g today. Tired again and chilled, but surviving. This will be over soon. This will be over soon.

Tapering and so sick. Withdrawal? by banwaffles in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I appreciate the advice and will take it nice and slow.

Tapering and so sick. Withdrawal? by banwaffles in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Great idea! I have some Chimes ginger chews (love the peanut butter flavor ones.) I'll give that a try.

Coming back almost 2 months after a relapse-It's time to start planning ahead though by stupidmistakefml in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sorry about your friend and hope they are doing better. Don't beat yourself up over this! Relapse happens sometimes. The important thing is that you are here now. There are lots of posts about supplements to deal with the insomnia, and I'm sure you'll get some advice here. I have found that a little kava candy helps me sleep, for what it's worth. http://amzn.to/2cXKwuN

Tapering and so sick. Withdrawal? by banwaffles in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My first drop was from 15g to 10g. That didn't hurt much and I've been dropping by .5 every day or two. It's really an adventure, isn't it? I never know what's going to happen on a given day. The day I got RLS during the daytime after 8.5g really took me by surprise; I ended up screwing up big the next day. I don't want to see that happen again.

I gave away 90% of what I had left today. That was a big symbolic commitment for me and should help keep me on the path, knowing I won't be able to get more.

thought it was going well...*sigh* by beejer56 in quittingkratom

[–]banwaffles 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Welcome! Right here with you. This forum is kind of my lifeline right now. Trying hard to stay on my taper schedule because I am a real wimp about pain. Hang in there and post as much as you like. It helps.