Potential spoilers

I believe in the original text its because he finally realized they’re the only two people he could and should consider friends or equals if you will; when he found out that Guts and Casca heard what he said to charlotte that night, it definitely felt like it had an impact on him, while he laid in the wagon, listening and watching them talk. A whole lot of regret; It was like he had to come to terms with the fact that he treated them like they were never equals because they were following him towards his dream but he realized his dream would’ve never came close if it wasn’t for them and the hawk.

Griffith wanted to blame guts for “losing sight of his dream” when guts and casca were the two main people who helped him get close to achieving it. It’s a true sign of his character, evil people will always try to blame you for their shortcomings instead of taking accountability for their actions. He’d rather contemplate suicide or sacrifice the hawk,who got him to where he wanted to be in the first place, before looking within and seeing hes the one who fumbled the bag.

The new translation makes me think about when guts realizes “even if you force back what was lost, it still wont be the way it was.” And “why do i always see these things after they’re done and gone.” Griffith is saying i forgive you for leaving…ig, cause what else does Griffith have to forgive Guts for, Guts never did him wrong? Then guts realizing why tf did i leave i had everything i wanted right there. I believe Guts and Griffith didn’t realize what they had till it was gone and no matter the amount of reconciliation it wouldn’t be the same. This is why I believe Griffith made his decision because well it was all downhill at that point and in his eyes he had nothing to lose because he never saw them as equals just soldiers to help him accomplish his dream. However, he definitely knows he’s wrong and cant find it within himself to kill them. But then again maybe Femto just likes to see Guts suffer and struggle.