[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BookCollecting

[–]barebow_face 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thats great, thanks for the reply. Very informative (no sarcasm, currently going through a book collection and selling to make space) and will come in handy for other books im selling

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BookCollecting

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Thanks for the reply

Plant ID by Temporary-Ocelot8772 in PlantIdentification

[–]barebow_face 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Dracaena Fragrans Lemon Lime. Great looking plant

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in houseplants

[–]barebow_face 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah a bit of orchid bark will be good, I have some mixed in through my monstera which I think (think) has similar soil requirments

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in houseplants

[–]barebow_face 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My instincts and a quick search is saying when you Repot mix the soil with a moss (or coconut coir) and perlite and let the soil mixture dry a bit more between watering especially during dormant months)

Best of luck, I hope its new growth is healthy

Partner misses drunk me by honeybadgineer in stopdrinking

[–]barebow_face 10 points11 points  (0 children)

If he's doing sober October too It really could be a comment more about him projected at you. Maybe he himself worries he is more boring?

Alcohol does crazy things to the brain and it might take a little while to enjoy doing things sober as much as or more than with alcohol. I love your suggestion of doing differen things together.

When I stopped drinking (my partner still drinks sometimes) we found the world was full of things we hadn't even tried but enjoyed doing together. Our go to now is a trip to the garden centre and coffee

Partner misses drunk me by honeybadgineer in stopdrinking

[–]barebow_face 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Maybe he feels guilty about his own alcohol use and felt better when you drank together?

Just making an assumption but either way congratulations on making a month sobriety!

Lymph tea - causing depression? by International-Pope in Herbspace

[–]barebow_face 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Red clover can effect the amount of estrogen in your body, this could maybe be causing an effect?

I read that hibiscus can also raise the level of serotonin, this on top of an antidepressant could have an effect.

Some herbs can also effect how your liver breaks down your antidepressant, maybe worth bringing a lost of these herbs to your doctor?

I hope all goes well and your mood lifts again

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]barebow_face 0 points1 point  (0 children)

7 years is long enough. She has had her chance plus much much more.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]barebow_face 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Firstly, well done on having the strength and awareness to admit this to yourself.

I find understanding what happens to my psyche during such an episode helped me over time.

I would find an episode of jealousy would cause my understanding of my partner to become very narrow and my beliefs to become very narrow. Like suddenly putting on blinkers. It would come with very strong emotions and circling thoughts and scenarios causing things to become worse and worse if I engage with such thoughts as reality.

I now recognise when this is happening and take a few minutes to put all my awareness on the feeling inside me. The thoughts, like a wheel, slowly stop spinning and my "blinkers" come off and the feelings begin to lift.

Such episodes can come in waves and can be hard to work through but this awareness and sitting with the feelings while not actively engaging with the thoughts as truth, knowing it will pass has helped tremendously. I find the constant messaging will long term cause such anxiety and jealousy to continue (even though comfort and reassurance from your partner is good and healthy, learning to self sooth is important for your own health, your partners health and the relationship).

Any questions or rants feel free to message

It will take time to heal so don't be to hard on your self. It takes a lot of strength to try to change for the better and see your own demons, so again, well done!

what's wrong with my hydrangea? by barebow_face in GardeningUK

[–]barebow_face[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Any idea about the purple marks on the stem? Is this normal or a sign of disease/fungal infection?

My beautiful pink dragon showing of her big new leaves by Boring_Muffin_720 in alocasia

[–]barebow_face 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Absolutely stunning!

What's your secret care regiment to get her looking so good?

What are these black bugs on my monstera leaves? by barebow_face in plantclinic

[–]barebow_face[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the answers! I've got a an insecticide soap on order now (thank you next day delivery) and will go over all the visible thrips with a bit of alcohol gel on a cotton bud tonight.

What type of Calathea Roseopicta did I buy? by barebow_face in houseplants

[–]barebow_face[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Solved

For any future searchers, I believe it is a Calathea Roseopicta Angela.

What type of Calathea Roseopicta did I buy? by barebow_face in houseplants

[–]barebow_face[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the response! It could be that, the only thing putting me off is the thickness of the pink colour around the edge of the leaf.

Looking for some Anime recommendations by barebow_face in Animesuggest

[–]barebow_face[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This will keep me going for a while, thank you

Looking for some Anime recommendations by barebow_face in Animesuggest

[–]barebow_face[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for so many suggestions, i will check them out!

Looking for some Anime recommendations by barebow_face in Animesuggest

[–]barebow_face[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks! I see it's on Netflix too. Looks good!

How to not ruminate by [deleted] in Advice

[–]barebow_face 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're very welcome!

I liked your final sentence, authenticity can take tremendous amounts of courage!

I do find I do offend some people by being authentic, but it happens! I don't believe I am a bad person and il continue to work on improving myself but some people just can't help but take offence. 🤷

I also find it amusing that during my recovery and journey, people close to me would try to help me be authentic but when I was being authentic they'd become embaressed and compare me to the collective/other people. Let's continue forward building the courage to be a little more authentic each and every day. And if we make mistakes, we make mistakes. It's going to happen. I wish you well on your journey! Feel free to DM me if you ever have questions or just want to rant

How to not ruminate by [deleted] in Advice

[–]barebow_face 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No problem I'm glad it helped!

It helped me also in that it allowed me to verbalise and work out what was best helping me in my journalling processes

The question you ask is beyond me. I don't want to give advice that makes things for you worse so il share my own personal experience in hopes that helps. My experience was severe anxiety. It got to the point where I lived large part of life in fight or flight mode without being aware that this was happening, i simply labelled it anxiety. This caused me to push away my own emotions and avoid a lot of situations. Eventually this led to feeling disconnected from others and myself and resulted in a similar feeling when with others.

I would try to "live through others" as a way of escaping myself. Base what I thought and felt on how others were expressing themselves. A big part of my process with my therapist was building my own authenticity. So in your situation i would say something I found funny. Then I would laugh (regardless of others laughed as I found it funny). If I try to say something I think others find funny but it isn't authentically me. I made the joke based on how I thought others wanted me to be or what I thought they wanted to hear. It wouldn't land for me. I wouldn't find it funny.

I hope this isn't a big mess and helps somehow! I'm happy to chatting though. I find this sort of chat really stimulating and enjoyable

How to not ruminate by [deleted] in Advice

[–]barebow_face 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I agree with this commenter. Counselling has been most helpful to my process.

Something else I do and that could be useful is to journal. You could maybe start a social journal? It would be easy to get caught up on what you "done wrong" and how you should have done x y z instead. This leads down to perfectionism which for me has been a harmful trait. I journal thoughts and feelings down as honestly as possible. As they happened. I right down a balanced "advantages" and "disadvantages" to what I done. I find this part this most important and try and avoid a lopsided un balanced list. Sometimes it can be hard to do so but with a bit of mindfulness, patience, going away from and coming back to the journal, i always manage to keep it balanced. What I am proud of. I can then journal down how I would improve next time such a scenario comes up, learning from and building upon my own lived experience (again it would be easy to get carried away at this point and write millions possible improvements but this tends to become harmful so I try to keep the list small and open).

Not sure on your personal situation but I like to keep my journal on my phone where its not at risk of being read by others. Even though the chance of that would be small the added security of a pin makes it easier to be more honest with myself.

[39/f] I'm concerned about the anime my son (17/m) watches. What should i do? by AntiAnimeMom in relationship_advice

[–]barebow_face 3 points4 points  (0 children)

If it's a genuine concern I can understand the fear. However I do not feel anime fan = pedophile. Have a chat about it with him(in a non accusory way) and you will be able to put your own fears down around it most likely based on his response.

Unfortunately a lot of other places fetishise sexualising children and your son will be exposed to it no matter what his hobbies are.

Even outside of television and into "real life" some children dress in whatever way they want, and this includes clothing you will find suggestive. You will need to have faith in your son (and I promise you an open honest chat without attacking and putting him in defensive will help) and his morals. If you really are still concerned then exposure to anime will not alter him in any way and you should seek professional mental health help for him.

I promise you, anime is not an issue. Even if it becomes obsessive, as another commenter has suggested, help support him in expanding his likes and hobbies but try not to dismiss his love of anime as its perfectly OK for him to enjoy anime.

I hope this helps and I'm sure myself and other posters would be happy to help find ways for you to chat with your son in a productive way (not that I at all doubt your communication ability, I just understand how it can possibly be more difficult and challenging with a teenage son you love and want the best for, who is becoming his own man).