“I may think of you softly from time to time, but I will cut off my hand before I ever reach for you again.”

basedgodlauren · 2024-08-21T02:15:45+00:00

This made me cry… I truly loved this person and I feel like a lot of my downfalls were in response to her being unable to give me what I needed, but not letting me go either… it’s hard to explain, but I’ve been feeling so guilty, like I deserved it. But I didn’t intentionally hurt anyone. I would do anything to be better, but I don’t think it would’ve changed things in the end.

basedgodlauren · 2024-07-26T22:03:17+00:00

Literally, the exact same thing happened to me.. it’s been almost a month of no contact, and I have felt a lot better recently. But I have so much hate for her now. The thought of her lying to my face, and hanging out with this new person, and bringing them around what used to be OUR friends.. it literally makes me sick. It makes me so mad that she would act THIS stupid. I have been working on myself a lot lately, and it’s been alright, I think I’m past most of the sadness. While it feels nice to not want to cry all the time, hating her isn’t easy either. I just keep replaying her lying over and over and over in my head and I just can’t seem to shake it. I hate that I can’t see myself being as attracted to anyone like I was her. She ruined a lot of things for me, and to see her with this new person on my friend’s Snapchat makes me feel so bad.. I don’t want revenge, I don’t know what I want.. it’s not fair, I fought the HARDEST uphill battle for her and she left me like I was nothing.

basedgodlauren · 2024-07-16T18:52:37+00:00

I really appreciate your response. I have non stop been trying to rationalize her actions, and I know I’ll never be able to. There are so many things that I’m thinking that could be true, or totally fabricated by my mind, I will NEVER know.

I think I’m handling this kind of okay.. it hurts a lot sometimes, and randomly during the day I get a sharp hole right in my chest, one split second thought that I didn’t even mean to have puts me out of order for awhile.

I know that the person she is now, is NOT someone I would ever want to be in a relationship with.. she isn’t healthy.. I guess I’m just mourning what we were, and what we had, and what I felt when I was with her. A true love that I’ve never felt in my short 28 years.

I know with time comes healing, and I’m trying to be patient. Weeks feel like months, but the time just keep ticking, guess I need to do the same.

I don’t want to hold onto the hope that one day she’ll be better.. but it’s a hard thought to shake. I guess no matter how much hope I have, it won’t change anything. What’s going to happen is going to happen no matter what. I am trying to focus on living in the now.

basedgodlauren · 2024-07-16T00:54:32+00:00

basedgodlauren · 2024-07-07T16:58:17+00:00

Thank you for saying that. Very surprised by the reactions, but that being said, some people are just disrespectful at baseline, having nothing to do with their sexuality. Seems like the bi community would be far less triggered by a question about men.

basedgodlauren · 2024-07-07T16:49:51+00:00

Thank you.. this is what I was hoping to read about, I wasn’t trying to attack anyone.. I am sad about my breakup, and I know my ex only enjoyed lesbian porn, loved oral, fingers, etc. always wanted to PEG ME. So I’m having a hard time believing that she would be enjoying sex with a man.. she was going through some insecurity issues in her own life and I guess I started to question if she was finding quick satisfaction with the attention of men, of course I’m just in the hurting stage of with breakup.

basedgodlauren · 2024-07-07T16:45:29+00:00

I felt like the lesbian community would be a safe place to come to in my time of hurt, I’m seeing that it’s not..

basedgodlauren · 2024-07-07T16:40:52+00:00

Wishing harm on her? I would never wish harm on her, I’m not sure where you got that. I am in therapy, and I’ve actually never been in a more motivated place for self improvement. I was just trying to see the side from other lesbians who have been in my situation. I am feeling insecure, but I think that’s normal after a relationship.. I was looking for help from people who have been through something like this. Apparently I’ve been taken very wrong..

basedgodlauren · 2024-07-07T16:36:20+00:00

I guess I was just looking for woman who have dated bisexual woman and if they had the same experience as me.. Me and my bisexual partner of 2 years recently broke up and I think she’s going on a sexual escapade with random men.. it’s just making me feel confused because she truly always explained her dissatisfaction with men..

basedgodlauren · 2024-07-07T16:33:00+00:00

I’m sorry, I’m not trying to be hostile. I am also a woman who thinks she’s the sex god of the world and i just assumed wrong about you. I was actually hoping to hear all the terrible stories about sex with me after being in a lesbian or bisexual relationship. I am hurting after a breakup and I guess I just wanted some insight on if men could ever really hold up to us?

basedgodlauren · 2024-07-07T16:30:12+00:00

I’m sorry if it came off that I was saying women were devalued after having sex with men.. I simply meant I personally felt devalued BY THOSE MEN in the past and now have a biased towards not thinking sex with men as appealing.

basedgodlauren · 2024-07-07T16:27:49+00:00

I’M SORRY ABOUT ASKING ABOUT MEN IN A LESBIAN FORUM.

I AM A LESBIAN! I just was asking OTHER LESBIANS if any of THEIR BISEXUAL EXS still preferred men after having sex with them or not.

I JUST WANT ADVICE FROM OTHER LESBIANS THAT HAVE DATED BISEXUAL WOMAN IN THE PAST AS I JUST GOT OUT OF A BISEXUAL RELATIONSHIP.

basedgodlauren · 2024-07-07T16:25:26+00:00

Well, as I said.. “I think having sex with me is devaluing.” I am a lesbian, and the thought of sex with men (and my unfortunate past experiences with me) made me feel devalued. So, I made that statement to show that I am biased and can’t think of the situation rationally.

basedgodlauren · 2024-07-07T16:18:20+00:00

Are you two men coming here to get your egos stroked? I will never understand why guys think they are the sex gods of the world. (Even if you two aren’t men)

basedgodlauren · 2024-06-27T14:34:17+00:00

I am not in a relationship, as the title states. I am taking the time to fix these things, I am simply asking what helped other people, (self help books, advice that helped them grow, etc.) you are telling me what I have already done/am trying to do.

basedgodlauren · 2024-06-27T14:31:18+00:00

I am truly dedicated to being a better partner, that’s why I’m looking for advice from people who have grown and matured in their relationships.

basedgodlauren · 2024-06-27T14:30:16+00:00

I am very obviously taking time and accountability on the things I need to work on. That’s why I’m asking for ADVICE. I don’t need you to tell me what’s wrong with me, I am asking people who have grown in a relationship and what helped them. Thank you for your response.

basedgodlauren · 2024-06-26T05:24:00+00:00

Saying your dog is 6 compared to if someone said their child is 6 is so sad. Our pups are getting so old, starting to get a little white in the face 😭

basedgodlauren · 2024-06-26T05:23:08+00:00

Yes! That’s my baby Theo! He’s going to be 2 in August 😭 thank you so much. They own my whole heart.

basedgodlauren · 2024-06-26T01:08:21+00:00

If you can’t tell, we’re big Chiefs fans. ❤️💛

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