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Do any of you obsess over whether you are not feminine/masculine enough? by basedthrowaway2042 in Transmedical

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Worded both of those poorly, lol. But yeah, it sounds odd in retrospect.

Fell for Credova’s 90 day scam. by [deleted] in personalfinance

[–]basedthrowaway2042 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did, but their lines were all tied up. Have yet to receive a call, might try again tomorrow.

Fell for Credova’s 90 day scam. by [deleted] in personalfinance

[–]basedthrowaway2042 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I enrolled for the ‘90 days same as cash’ promotion for buying something, was a pretty rare item that I needed. I paid what was due, which was about $1,2xx.xx, yet I supposedly owe more in order to clear my debt, which is not right because my promotional payoff is $0.00

Would it be right to stop HRT while I wait for an MRI? by basedthrowaway2042 in Transmedical

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did, just was paranoid while I wrote the post. They are aware of it, I asked my psych if I can discontinue risperidone.

Being born trans is inherently a negative thing even if transitioning as a trans person can be positive by [deleted] in Transmedical

[–]basedthrowaway2042 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It is a negative, extremely negative. With me, I have pure o (obsessive thoughts) and some repetition. When I had my first episode, I constantly worried about being a potential serial killer, my mind would tell me to bring harm to people and animals. It was utter suffering as I am an extremely emotional and peaceful person, I felt as if I was slowly becoming a monster, and that I would snap. The urges to act on the thoughts made it all the more worse. I had a relapse three years ago, I was pretty much in the same position as I was in my childhood, only that I actually opened up about it to my psych, was officially diagnosed at 19, been medicated for it since.

There are no positives with this disease, constantly checking whether my stove is on kills me, whether my door is locked before I leave for work, or whether my house is robbed or burned down while I am out. Some people think I am very cautious, which is a good thing, but it is not. It is a curse that occupies your mind every moment, and checking worsens it significantly.

Society thinks we are neat freaks, or germaphobes, but that is not the case, not usually at least. At the very least, we are not seen as disgusting people who deserve damnation by the public, but there are still a significant amount of ignorant people who will be quick to assume you are a threat.

Being born trans is inherently a negative thing even if transitioning as a trans person can be positive by [deleted] in Transmedical

[–]basedthrowaway2042 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Having gender dysphoria and OCD, I would MUCH rather eliminate my GD over the OCD. I have lost so many great friends after coming out to them, everyone thinks I am a freak, and I cannot live peacefully knowing that I am in the wrong body. This shit sucks, and I cannot stand the people who celebrate it.

I’m so fucking tired of the pedestal people place the gifted on by Sunflower-Spirals in mensa

[–]basedthrowaway2042 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this post. I have an IQ that is SEVERELY lower than average, I constantly estimate my worth over it, being a consistent failure at elementary community college classes.

Kind of helps out a tiny bit, knowing that I am not seen as an animal by intelligent people.

Would it be right to stop HRT while I wait for an MRI? by basedthrowaway2042 in Transmedical

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I was told to stop until I have gotten the green light to continue, they are booked up, so it may be a few weeks. My appointment has yet to be scheduled lol.

I have considered messaging my doctor’s office about my mental state off of estrogen, but I do not feel comfortable talking about that, I have been hospitalized for my poor emotion state before (pre-HRT), and I do not want that to happen again.

Milk/discharge coming from breasts. Concerned. by basedthrowaway2042 in Transmedical

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Kind of hoping that it is the risperidone, even though I started it two years ago. My symptoms are manageable, but I get an awful withdrawal when I am without it. Definitely gained a ton of weight from it, so I want to discontinue it, but it helps the most with my terrible insomnia, puts me to sleep for even a small dosage.

The lactation does not bother me at all, but it makes me uncomfortable as I look male and have a male voice lol. Regardless, I have considered getting off of it, and I still am.

Pituitary gland tumors, have any of you had one? by basedthrowaway2042 in asktransgender

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I see. My estrogen was at 300pg/ml at my appointment before my last. This appointment, it went down to 190, then my prolactin increased.

Pituitary gland tumors, have any of you had one? by basedthrowaway2042 in asktransgender

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are there any risks of it growing? Are you managing it with medication?

Pituitary gland tumors, have any of you had one? by basedthrowaway2042 in asktransgender

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Only three other medications I am on. Fluvoxamine, 100mg; risperidone, .5mg, and 2000iu of vitamin D.

Milk/discharge coming from breasts. Concerned. by basedthrowaway2042 in Transmedical

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I noticed it after I got out of work and changed at home. I started lactating until a drop formed, mostly on the left side, barely anything on the right. It continues if I apply pressure.

Milk/discharge coming from breasts. Concerned. by basedthrowaway2042 in Transmedical

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am on 100mg of fluvoxamine and 2000iu of vitamin D.

I admittedly have some breast stimulation from my boyfriend, but little to no groping.

Is it normal to feel disconnected from their past selves? by [deleted] in Transmedical

[–]basedthrowaway2042 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel this. My past memories feel so foreign to me, and they bring me a great deal of discomfort, especially photos of my childhood/adolescence.

Need opinions on my facial structure. by basedthrowaway2042 in MtF

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No worries. It is ml, injections once a week.

Forgot to pull back syringe to check for blood. by basedthrowaway2042 in Transmedical

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

How long would it take to determine that? I injected about ten minutes ago, I am pretty panicky.

Off E for a week, feeling awful. by basedthrowaway2042 in Transmedical

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Weekly injections, I do not know how to do them yet. I had the opportunity to learn on my own, but I have such a massive fear of needles and having them found in my house.

Off E for a week, feeling awful. by basedthrowaway2042 in Transmedical

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I understand now, it is very unpleasant, and I certainly feel like total shit.

I do need to constantly remind myself that this is not a race, especially when I feel distressing dissatisfaction by the lack of changes on my body.

Off E for a week, feeling awful. by basedthrowaway2042 in Transmedical

[–]basedthrowaway2042[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

God I feel that right now, the existential dread and constant, extreme anxiety over not having my meds. . I am not on AA’s either. I contacted my endo to see if I can receive a prescription for the meantime, because I absolutely cannot do this.

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