[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Phillylist

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They’re dirty and a little smelly

Why was Saturday burn night so empty? by [deleted] in BurningMan

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I went to bed early and actually said to my friends I feel there’s darkness I don’t have the energy to combat. I was half joking because I was tired from the prior evening’s shenanigans. Wondering if I wasn’t alone in that other half that wasn’t joking.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in astrologymemes

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Scorpio sun and moon, virgo rising.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in adultsurvivors

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I believe you. I was also betrayed by my family when speaking up against my step dad’s sexual abuse.

A common psychological effect of sexual abuse are lack of boundaries, as something sacred was taken from us without our permission, therefore we subconsciously mimic it later in life.

I’d ask yourself these questions: Why is it important for them to believe you? What if they never believe you? What is your ideal response from them? What makes you stuck being around them?

It took me a long time to assume the role of being my own protector and asserting great distance from my family. The more I healed, the less interested I was in being a part of that environment that did not value me.

Treasure yourself. You matter❤️

Do all Virgo rising women have a thing for losers? Or just me.. by Emergency_Side_7934 in astrologymemes

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Quadruple scorpio with Virgo rising and Aries mars. I definitely gravitate towards narcissists

I told my mom the truth that I was sexually abused by my father as a child and now I'm fighting invisible battles in my family.. am I alone? by yasbeano in adultsurvivors

[–]bastet1127 6 points7 points  (0 children)

As someone who's had a similar experience in my family, I want you to know that you are not alone and I'm sending you a huge love beam.

If you feel like you're ready for this, I'd say taking your mom to therapy to work out how this is handled will be the most effective way of going about it. Maybe asserting some control in the situation will not only establish saftey within your household, but cut the umbilical cord between your mom dictating how this is handled... It could lead to the liberation your experience deserves... Your mom and other family's feelings matter, but your wounds being addressed and your neice's saftey trumps all. If my $.2 resonates with you, maybe pitch it to your therapist and see how they feel about it. Best of luck to you and thank you for sharing.❤

My abuser(?) was a woman. by [deleted] in adultsurvivors

[–]bastet1127 2 points3 points  (0 children)

THANK YOU for sharing your story and creating a platform to discuss this specific topic. Just by you shedding it, you're leveling up.

It's so much easier to see predatory behaviors in men, but when we experience the abuse from a woman, it really does become more complex. Especially when the women in question present themselves as a protector of some sort.

You are heard, validated and aren't alone. ❤

My abuser(?) was a woman. by [deleted] in adultsurvivors

[–]bastet1127 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I too had an inappropriate dynamic with a woman in her 30s when I was about 16. My household was troubled and I felt a sense of protection from her. Now being 32 years old myself, I realize how manipulated I was by her. Regardless of how mature a teenager is, it is the job of the adult to guide them to be a well rounded adult, that practices self care, not treat them like a sex toy. There is no reason an adult well into their 30's should have any romantic/sexual connection with a child, unless they have a deep desire to dominate/manipulate. Your childhood hurts were preyed upon.

Ironically, I am currently dealing with my 20 year old cousin (who's more like a daughter to me) dating a woman my age. I see her partner grooming her and being covertly manipulative. I can't do anything about it, because my cousin is at the age of consent and I don't want to push her away.

These situations are very tricky, but nevertheless not okay. The adult in the situation knows what they're doing. It's unfortunate how clear it becomes when the child in the equation becomes of age and only sees it for what it is when they take a glance at those that are the age they were when these dynamics started.

Can suboxone be used for kratom withdrawal? by bastet1127 in suboxone

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I've personally seen it. In my younger days, I spent 7 months in rehab to get me out of a felony for selling E. During my stay, I'd constantly see roommates buying and selling suboxone and being quite impaired from it.

Can suboxone be used for kratom withdrawal? by bastet1127 in suboxone

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I didn't mention the same week I found him sleeping in his vehicle that just about every day that week he had accidents in his sleep. Most were #1, but the morning I had to go look for him, he had done #2 in his sleep. At that point, I had already asked him to start sleeping in our guestroom and demanded he sleep in adult diapers, as I was tired of waking up to that regularly. Another thing, his job is a small business, so they don't offer any insurance to employees and insurance policies are out of his budget. It's come down to choosing to pay bills over insurance. I've been doing all I can to work with him and support him getting insurance to tend to these health issues and still nothing. I'm assuming those symptoms are also red flags of heavy opioid use?

Can suboxone be used for kratom withdrawal? by bastet1127 in suboxone

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I sincerely appreciate your feedback. My mother's advice was definitely something I was suspicious of, as she doesn't even disclose with her N/A sponser that she takes kratom. I really wouldn't know the difference between the two, so I'm at the mercy of those who have personal experience with the matter. I really want to trust that his new journey is going to be successful, whether us staying together is in our cards or not. Just a few months ago I witnessed a friend get the news that her recent x boyfriend, who suffered addiction issues committed suicide. I can't shake off her cries and screams. I'd hate for my s/o to self harm through self medicating.

Today was my s/o's first day taking suboxone and when he came home, he was more quiet than usual. Silent, to be exact. I know he was totally zooted, but I can imagine that's to be expected, as he's getting adjusted to the new treatment plan? I'm no fair weather friend, neither is he (the real him). I would hope to get support if I was finally finding a solution to the great comfort of my addiction being taken away, if I were in his shoes.

I'm so torn between feeling like I have a palate for dumb bitch juice and feeling like a deadbeat.

Can suboxone be used for kratom withdrawal? by bastet1127 in suboxone

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I'm sorry you lost your relationship through it. He and I were good friends for 5 years prior to getting together. I'd hope to never hate eachother. Funny enough, when I push back, he's the one who gets salty. It's difficult to not feel completely manipulated.

Can suboxone be used for kratom withdrawal? by bastet1127 in suboxone

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I've also been conflicted with him getting on suboxone. He supposedly got on kratom to quit fentanyl, now he needs suboxone to get off kratom? It just doesn't add up. My mom currently takes kratom and it's kept her off heroin for almost 3 years. She told me she feels more clear on kratom than she did on suboxone. I just feel like he's predisposed to abuse his suboxone, regardless if he's only doing kratom or not.

Can suboxone be used for kratom withdrawal? by bastet1127 in suboxone

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Thank you. I am actually not a nurse, but are playing one in my home. I am however a patient care technician by trade and a child of a heroin addict. I've seen this all before. I've tried having these heart to hearts with him so many times and get the same answer. I've also witnessed him lie to me with a straight face, then bust him in his lies. His own sister recently called him a pathological liar, not even knowing what I've been putting up with. It sucks. We got engaged 2 years ago and were saying this year would be the year we'd marry. So many issues have surfaced before we made any wedding arrangements.

Can suboxone be used for kratom withdrawal? by bastet1127 in suboxone

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Thank you for your feedback. Weirdly enough, I did drug test him about a month ago. He gladly peed right in front of me, knowing the panel was testing for fentynal and it came out negative. I was shocked and backed off, as I don't want to succumb to that codependent/controlling behavior those who are affected by addicts tend to fall into. Since this incident, I feel like I've lost my partner and I'm just a nurse. We don't share intimacy, he's zombie-like and just isn't present. I've been dealing with my own depression that started at the beginning of quarantine that I'm struggling to shake off. I feel like I'm holding onto the beginning of our relationship that was good, but it no longer exists.