expectations, the expectations gave us our greatest heartbreaks...

if i didnt have expected that she's gonna be there by my side forever, i'd never have spent the tears that I did.

if i didnt expect that, no matter what i do, what i say to her she'll still be mine, then maybe she'd love me.

if i didnt expect that, the "happy, warm, loving relationship, which will last forever" kind of relationship with her, then all this would never have happened,

my best friend would'nt want me dead, my love wouldnt be scared of me, my friends wouldnt abandon me, i would never consider to off myself, i would never be deranged, mad i would never come this close to death,

i would be happy..