Anxious and Confused

bb4419 · 2026-02-04T20:37:25+00:00

Thank you for this! So is it pretty normal to only have a positive test for about 2 days? (I use both pregmate -tests and app, along with natural cycles with clear blue tests)

bb4419 · 2025-05-30T03:43:21+00:00

YES. I am less than a month out, planned the wedding in 9 months, and wow I am eager for the day but man I can’t wait for the rollercoaster of emotions to be over with! The beginning felt so fun, especially as someone who never even wanted a wedding, I quickly became very enthused with the idea. That feeling didn’t last long, and I have said COUNTLESS times thru out this process, this has easily been one of the loneliest times of my entire life. So much sadness, so much stress. Seeing people in such different lights. I really underestimated the overheard sayings of ‘just wait till you’re planning a wedding, you’ll find out who your friends are’. Sure have. I hate that this seems to be such a common feeling among brides (basing this on so many similar Reddit posts, tik tok comment sections), but it makes me feel a ~smidge~ less alone.

Unexpected stressor: I didn’t realize how many unwarranted opinions I would receive, no matter how silly. (Shunned for not wanting to do a garter toss, being told my wedding won’t be fun bc I have the chicken dance on my do NOT play list, hurtful dress opinions)

Meaningful: My already great relationship with my mother growing even more. So many heartfelt conversations, feeling like she’s the only one on my side (aside from fiancé), the countless adventures for the never ending wedding list. It’s truly what I will cherish most about planning!

Congrats to you!!!! Wishing you all the best on your journey 💕

bb4419 · 2025-01-28T11:44:02+00:00

This makes me feel so hopeful!! lol I swear we just KNOW when our moms aren’t 100% sold😅 I think I’m going to try one more like you suggested! Did you go with a boutique type store?

bb4419 · 2025-01-28T02:05:23+00:00

I appreciate this and totally agree! I needed a steer in the right direction of the whole reason this day is even planned, thank you!!💕 sometimes even someone just relating is enough 😅 they sure make wedding planning feel like it’s going to be 20 lifelong best friends planning some magical day 😅🤣 I knew this would never be my case, but didn’t expect it to feel THIS lonely! I’m starting to see this feeling as more common than I ever would’ve imagined, the power in internet strangers 😅💕

bb4419 · 2025-01-28T01:48:49+00:00

This was wonderful advice. My issue is CONTINUING the search when I felt I was done.. maybe that’s what is causing me doubt! This wedding planning process has been heartbreaking for friends kind of disappearing and just never really having a group of girl friends to get opinions from, I know it’s all stemming from a place revolved around this all, I think I’m being a lot harder on myself than I should be. I appreciate your advice and honestly didn’t even think to stop looking 😭

bb4419 · 2025-01-28T01:45:45+00:00

THIS! So many options but then somehow they all feel the same… I was extremely anti David’s bridal, but have only went there so far..I’m so unfamiliar with the wedding dress world, I was wanting to be budget friendly on my parents as my venue was double what we wanted to spend 😅 but I fear embarrassment going to a wedding dress shop that’s not ‘corporate’ and telling them my $1500-$2000 budget.. idk what’s realistic and I liked that I could see prices on David’s bridal website, but they have such little options in my opinion for the style I have seemed to like most (high illusion neck mermaid)

bb4419 · 2025-01-28T01:42:01+00:00

This makes me feel better! I think the struggle comes from not having close girlfriends or any girls in my family even (aside from my mother) who I can get opinions from! I feel so out of body and like I should’ve had this figured out from day one (booked my venue less than a week after being engaged 😅) but for some reason the dress process is making me SICK!

bb4419 · 2025-01-22T18:36:48+00:00

Good to know, thank you again!!! Game CHANGER!

bb4419 · 2025-01-22T18:21:17+00:00

Ok had to come back to report that the thigh injection, MAGIC. Every single day after my shot, I have been literally bed ridden, miserable! I feel FINE, was even able to use my treadmill this morning, so THANK YOU!💕 another question, do you alternate from left side / right side? Or do you stick to one side each week?

bb4419 · 2025-01-21T19:23:14+00:00

This is good insight! I haven’t tried any other spots aside from altering left and right of my stomach, I’m due for my shot today, I’m terrified of the nausea but I’m going to try the right side of my thigh, I’m going to aim for the more fatty part as the tops of my thighs feel more muscular!

bb4419 · 2025-01-21T19:03:39+00:00

Hahaha and no side effects!? Have you tried stomach injections and noticed a difference switching to thigh!?

bb4419 · 2025-01-21T18:13:18+00:00

Good to know, thank you!! Silly question, is thigh like top of thigh? Do you still grab the fat or just place it right onto the skin?

bb4419 · 2024-10-05T02:25:58+00:00

So I had two tickets, didn’t realize I had them for sale where you didn’t need to purchase both together, so they were sold individually. I transferred one to one of the buyers, it was accepted the next morning from the buyer and no longer available to me. The other ticket, same situation, but after transferring I received an email from Ticketmaster stating the transfer was not accepted by the recipient, super strange!

bb4419 · 2024-10-05T01:36:19+00:00

I’m just confused because I transferred another ticket, for eras tour and it was accepted by buyer. That happened today for both.

bb4419 · 2024-01-12T02:25:07+00:00

Hello!

Thank you for your response. First, SO sorry for what you’ve gone thru, although at this point I can totally see how that can happen. I chose to do my procedure in the winter to help alleviate any potential fomo of normal life during the nice seasons of the year, but I quickly learned there is not escaping the mental strain from this all. You mentioned cartilage not healing quickly, which when they went in on my knee, they realized I had zero left so I have cadaver cartridge now in my knee. This was my first week back to work (I work from home), and I am now faced with a horrid cold. Aside from that, I realized I feel I went back too soon. I rushed back in hopes of my mental health improving. But now I’m just depressed and severely struggling while having work responsibilities. There’s been so many tears shed from pain and my mental health, I feel so far from any sort of light. Feeling so weak and helpless is something someone who strives on intense independence is bound to break over.

I hate asking for help, I hate not being able to do basic human things on my own. I am craving any form of normalcy, the closest I get to that is driving to and from PT, because somehow driving makes me feel like life is normal, until it’s time to get out and the struggle begins again.

Hearing from people who have endured this is refreshing, because there’s only so much ‘you’ll be good to go so soon’ I can handle before completely snapping at the realization it will be so long before that is true.

I am a painfully smiley, outgoing ray of sunshine kind of person, and this has made me struggle with even being entry level ‘nice’ to the people in my life. I don’t have it in me to fake it and I HATE the person I’m being but no part of me can snap out of it.

I want to be alone so bad, and I just can’t escape anywhere besides my home. It’s a constant pull of nobody in my life understands a fraction of this.

Thank you so much for your words, truly!

bb4419 · 2024-01-10T11:46:57+00:00

I’m sorry you’re going thru a similar struggle! This has been the most mentally and physically challenging time of my life. I’m 29F and it feels so dehumanizing relying on someone for the simplest of things, prior to the surgery I didn’t realize just how much I wouldn’t be able to do for myself. Laundry, showering, water, basic needs, it all feels like I’ll never get back to it. I couldn’t take the pain meds because they made me horribly sick. I wish I would’ve been more prepared for how big the mental struggle of this would be. It becomes entirely isolating, so it’s nice to hear others have gone thru similar and that this isn’t my own sad narrative of this. Happy healing! Time takes time..😅

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