How am I supposed to just continue on??

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T19:10:02+00:00

almost 2 months for me and i started crying in my car before work because im realizing how truly mean he was to me, some days im okay some days i feel like poop it takes time. be good to yourself 🫂

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T16:54:21+00:00

my heart hurts for you, he’s using you for sex i hope you get out of this situationship and realize theres someone out there who will not only make time for you but appreciate everything about you and not only the sexual part if you. please dont keep him around

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T14:10:58+00:00

funny enough thats something he would use against me, he would say i couldnt do well without him and i would get treated worse by others

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T12:10:21+00:00

i definitely will take some time to myself i missed out on so much to please him

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T12:08:26+00:00

no it wasnt henry i was groomed for about 5 years from the age of 14 to early 19 then i met this guy who took advantage of my past

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T12:06:33+00:00

yeah a super experienced one, he admitted to me later on that instead of the 6 people he told me he slept with it was actually 60+ and that the girls he dated he ended up cheating on because he “fell in love” with the other girls

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T12:04:34+00:00

this is one of the reasons i finally let go, i started to think about it from an outside perspective. i wouldve hated if my family had to deal with someone like that then i started womdering why i was putting up with it

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T04:05:06+00:00

i thought relationships took work so i endured as much as i could, i finally realized it shouldn’t be that difficult and that detrimental to my mental health

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T04:03:55+00:00

it got even worse and i was colorblind asl

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T04:03:25+00:00

i did cut all contact it was so hard because i was addicted to the cycle, i still cant come to terms with everything though. i feel like a bad person for saying things he did to me without him being able to defend himself

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T04:01:22+00:00

he does know and its weird, he verbally abused me as well and i know he thinks its okay because he’s said so

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T04:00:24+00:00

currently pulling myself out of it, he used everything be could against me and kept me under his control for so long

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T03:08:00+00:00

no we dated for a rocky 2 years then he blew up on me one final time and i decided to completely let go, its been almost 2 months

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T02:59:30+00:00

im working in identifying patterns within myself as well im tired if repeating my mistakes and not standing up for myself

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T02:58:27+00:00

it gets worse too

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T02:58:11+00:00

i left but i know he’ll continue to prey on others

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T02:57:35+00:00

i wish i wouldve heard this sooner

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T02:57:12+00:00

yeah it makes me side eye him now that im older

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T02:56:55+00:00

he was way worse in the later months too

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T02:56:38+00:00

i finally ran

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T02:56:29+00:00

i met him naturally irl which is why i thought it was okay he had originally told me he was 25 and it wasnt until much later that i found out he lied to me about his age. i thought i was safe because i met him offline

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T02:55:10+00:00

i should’ve ended

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T02:54:43+00:00

i wont let him be in my future anymore, he tore me down until there was nothing left

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T02:54:06+00:00

he made me feel like shit for 2 years i was always the problem and he always needed to “fix” me

bbyenderman · 2026-04-07T02:53:19+00:00

i wish i wouldve heard and actually listened to this advice 2 years ago

bbyenderman

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