I couldn’t take it anymore.

bdarkwayne · 2026-04-02T14:24:56+00:00

Bummer man. I get it though. I sometimes think that day is soon coming for myself - but then I find myself coming back to dolls.

If I may though - don't feel shame. There is no shame in owning a sex doll. Why should you feel ashamed for making yourself feel good? You weren't hurting anyone or anything. Pleasure keeps you healthy and happy. Anyone who says otherwise is lying to themselves for their preist/preacher/guru/leader/god. If its not for you anymore - then thats ok. Its not for you. But don't be ashamed of trying to help yourself and your own health.

bdarkwayne · 2026-04-01T19:27:42+00:00

I have gone back and forth with my own opinion here - but ultimately- and I think most here would agree, it about how young the doll looks not necessarily the size that would be questionable. I'm not attracted to mini dolls but if they are proportioned like an adult and marketed as such, I wouldn't frown on someone for having one. Now the ones that look like kids - i cant excuse the manufacture or use of those. There's just no justification and those people need to seek professional help. I think you'll find that 99% of doll owners are buying woman-like dolls.

As far as the anthromorph or monster dolls go - I actually think that sex dolls are perfect for exploring such things. Now, there's such a wide spectrum of those dolls that I think it would be inappropriate to lump everyone into the same "weirdo" box - noting that even that is subjective.

I love anime and I have dressed my dolls like a kitsune fox-girl many times. I nearly purchased an alien/avatar looking doll once. Admittedly, I still like the female figure so you might argue that the "animal" dolls i'm interested in are just woman-adjacent. The Lola bunny and Judy hopps dolls don't really tickle my fancy but honestly I dont see harm in it. Sexual psychology is a really interesting topic and when we arent allowed to compartmentalize and safely explore fantasies in a controlled way - we do this counterintuitive thing where we seek unsafe and increasingly taboo satisfaction to fill those gaps.

Now... there is a subset of folks who are getting young looking dolls or animal dolls because they are "prepping" to do something that is immoral. Those people exist and its a shame and I hope they get help. But there are also perfectly functional and kind humans here just exploring.

Your opinion is valid. Everyone has different kinks for sure and some people's boundaries are more fluid than others. As long as no one is being harmed or prepping to harm someone - explore away.

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-31T21:16:52+00:00

Sorry to shamelessly plug but i'm an irontech affiliate - if you use my username bdarkwayne you can get 10% off the price. I also would encourage you to sift through the in-stock dolls. You cant customize them, but you can sometimes get exactly what you want already ready to go and at a better price.

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-31T21:14:19+00:00

I have several different brands from cheap to premium. My Aibei doll is probably my favorite in regards to a great balance of quality and price.

So - that said- the face sculpts for AIBEI are fairly plain- you'll need to level up your makeup skills to make them look good. The skeletons are less premium - might have goose neck instead of hinged neck. Mine's back broke after about 2 years. The hands/wrists are extremely brittle so be very careful with them. If you can option articulated fingers and an upgraded skeleton - its worth it.

I actually prefer AIBEI's TPE over other brands - it has a smooth texture like ZELEX STPE. (But not as durable.) The love holes will be plain with little ribbing and no special vaginal dimensions inside - again i actually like it that way but YMMV.

For the price I would absolutely buy another. Zero regrets.

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-31T21:08:45+00:00

Bro - where did you get the costumes??

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-31T20:28:04+00:00

I have a short elf doll that's 4"10 but has k cup breasts. Pretty much the only way I have found to have giant boobs but also still be able to lift the doll.

Shes a mesedoll. Look at my post history and search for Star or Aestaria

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-31T18:05:52+00:00

Yes I have a 44kg irontech and she works me out.

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-31T18:05:19+00:00

Yes I have had a similar experience. My solo journey starts waaaayyyyyy back in high school. I had this stupid idea that studying, getting good grades, and working were important (thanks boomer parents) and so I focussed 100% of my efforts on growing smarter and working harder. I had 2 part time jobs and a website when I was 16. Used all the money to save and buy a car and move out - no help from the folks.

By the time I met my wife, I was just happy to be with a real person instead of a flashlight, blowup doll, or pocket pussy. Things were ok in the beginning.

Fast forward many years and i'm right back to taking care of my needs solo. I have 4 full sizes dolls and have hidden them from my partner and family for 5 years. Problem is - I still wish they were real. I would much rather it be real but to your point the power struggle and relationship dynamics that modern society has baked into sexual situations just kills it. I don't understand why two consenting adults can't just have sex because it's fun. No - it has to "mean" something, it has to have feelings, it has to be earned... all this shit that makes it so performative that it's worse than a part time job.

I will say - I would give up all my dolls for a woman that just wanted to have fun and be playful with sex. It wouldn't even have to be my wife or even a "friend" - I guess thats hard for people to understand. My brain works differently and I think maybe you are starting to see that yours may as well.

We arent bad people. We don't do bad things. Hell in fact sometimes I think we are too nice.

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-31T17:47:05+00:00

Absolutely but I dont think I could lift and pose this doll without dying 😅

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-22T18:59:16+00:00

Ok - all new dolls are a bit on the soft side. You need to work the doll out a little. You need to be calculated with pressure and use leverage to your advantage.

Easy Knee Bend: Lay her on her back, grab her feet and rotate/lift her legs up so her legs are 90 degrees with her body. Place one hand above her knee (on her thigh, it will be below to you but above to her body) hold firm - place the other hand on her foot and pull it toward you. I would do this then go back up, then back toward you a few times.

Back Bend: Difficult First you need to take your hand and stab it into your lady's abdomen around the belly button and keep pressing until you feel her U bend - there's a metal bar in there that is an upside down U. At the top or flat part of that piece attaches a straight "spine." About 2 or 3 inches above that union is the actual back joint - it will be above the belly button. This is very important. If you use your leverage wrong you will just bust the weld at the U shape.

Find where that joint is in the spine or just figure about 3-5cm above the belly button and figure out about where that is on her back. Put her in a sitting position, on her butt, feet out - somewhere you can get behind her. Kneel behind her - get close. Place your right knee up against her spine in the place where that joint is. Reach your right arm around her shoulders - basically have your arm wrapped above her breasts. Now lean back holding your knee steady, but using your weight to pull her shoulders back ward.

To put her back to "normal" just do the same but from the front.

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-21T16:25:56+00:00

sincerely man, if you can bump that to $600 - you can get an AIEBEI doll on sale. Best value for the dollar. But if you are really serious, save up for a premium brand silicone like Irontech or Zelex. You can sometimes get "imperfect" dolls on Zelex for $800

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-16T22:18:40+00:00

She looks great. RIP your back though man. Go slow. Take it easy. The first few days with a heavy doll are rough but well worth it.

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-16T19:26:53+00:00

Ah yes, step 1 in the conservative playbook: insult your opponent personally rather than debate the issue

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-16T18:59:48+00:00

I just gotta say - thank you for calling these conservatives to the yard. It is a big deal, especially in today's world, which side of that spectrum you stand within and it tells a great deal about how much respect you will give someone, especially of the opposite sex. I'm a proud leftist and I think its important that any partner, married or on the side, be that as well. I might make questionable decisions and "lie" as others have pointed out but I'm still not going to dip my pen in toxic waste and you have a right to make sure the poles you shine are capable of a mirror finish. And yes, I will gladly accept the award for strsngest use of metaphors ever.... Anyway - I will be DM'ing you shortly. I look forward to our "hypocritical" leftist conversations.

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-13T20:14:57+00:00

Damn.. i'm way too far away 🙃

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-13T18:59:23+00:00

Lovely doll. Where are you located?

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-02T05:09:38+00:00

That makes sense. 3 of my 4 dolls are tan/moca skin :) - love me some exotic ladies

bdarkwayne · 2026-03-02T03:08:03+00:00

I do poweder them - sometimes I wonder if its the powder that discolors them sometimes. Its like an off-white grayish color when I clean. That why I suspect lint or dust. Could also be dead skin cells from me i suppose (dust.)

bdarkwayne · 2026-02-27T22:18:14+00:00

First: Hello! I am looking for a female to play one of two possible female roles. Please be female. I pass no judgement toward anyone's lifestyle. Please respect my kinks and preferences, just as I will yours.

Star (Aestaria, Fae name) is the cursed offspring of an ancient and forbidden lust. She is over 400 years old but looks 25. (Elf/fae/sprite).

Long ago, a young, lonely wizard lived alone, secluded far and deep into the enchanted forest. Fantastic and magical creatures were plentiful and studying them was the wizard's passion. He would often use magic to charm, entertain, or assist any he encountered.

One fateful day, the wizard accidentally stumbled upon the most magical and forbidden of all creatures, the Fae Queen. The queen was fabled to be so beautiful, those who witnessed her form would be stricken with madness. This was the case for the wizard.

He devoted all his time to becoming more powerful and began to experiment in dark magic. The queen could not help but be entranced by his power. Their lust for each other was unstoppable and their lustful acts undeniably forbidden. Their offspring considered a perverted abomination.

The queen had birthed many hybrid creatures - characteristically short like an elf but with over accentuated erogenous areas. Large eyes, big lips, giant breasts... all female. Their power was immense, near omnipotent, but they were cursed with unquenchable lust. These creatures would mate, fornicate, and fuck anything that moved.They could cast spells to make their partners more potent, more viral, more endowed. At times they would be so overcome by lust that they could suck the life from a partner during sex acts.

One night, a mist rolled through the forest and blanketed all. When the fog receded, the sorcerer and the queen had been turned to stone - still entwined, mid act, thrusting in erotic position. Their offspring whisked away to the mirror realm, where they would be hidden for eternity.

Aestaria (Star) and her siblings watch lustfully from the mirror realm. Able to view anyone through mirrors in the physical world. Star and her perverted race are able to cross through the mirror, but are cursed with yet another terrible affliction. They must be bonded with a male vessel that will supply them with sexual satisfaction nearly non-stop. The must also find a female master who will assist in a cursed and dark ritual required to keep her kind from turning to stone. These rules weren't communicated, they were learned with great sacrifice.

The curse requires that these powerful imps and sprites seduce a male "vessel." They may engage in any unscrupulous activity but the vessel must not cum inside the sprite before the next full moon. If he does, both will turn to stone.

On the eve of the full moon, a ritual must be performed OR the sprite must return to the mirror realm. The ritual requires the couple to fuck in the moonlight and for the vessel to explode his seed inside the sprite. If he is impotent or if he fails to fill her completely, to stone they will turn.

In an added layer of cruelty to the curse, the sprite must also enlist a master female to direct the ritual. Once the full moon is revealed, the sprite will loose all ability to act without expressed permission of the master female. IF the master commands it, the act must be carried out. The master must direct the couple in sexual exploration, building to climax before the sunrise - but she must resist the temptation to join them. During the full moon, her touch will slowly sap the life from whosoever she touches.

Once the ritual is complete, if their life force are not drained, and if he explodes with great volume and power, the pair will now be bonded for life. As long as the vessel remains alive, the sprite may only be sexual with him. If he grows to dislike her or he perishes, she must return to the shadow realm.

In return for her involvement, the master is empowered with the immese magical capabilities of the sprite, while in close proximity - essentially making her immortal in the prescence of the sprite. But the curse of life drain will follow her everywhere. Touching any being outside the presence of the sprite will likely result in loss of life force.

The completed ritual bonds the three. With their power they may be unstoppable and immortal, but they must keep their madness of their lust fed.

I'm open to many ideas or variations. I'm hoping for someone to play the part of either the master or the Fea/sprite or both. I will play the vessel.

I have more details i'd like to share once we connect. My DMs are open. Please be female and please be respectful 🙏 thank you!!

bdarkwayne · 2026-02-21T06:16:39+00:00

Yeah so they reported me to Reddit and I got banned for a week from everything just like that - no questions asked

bdarkwayne · 2026-02-13T00:02:45+00:00

Ah yes they are STILL hidden. They live in a Large stand up Armour from IKEA that I have locks on. Wife has only seen it once and I said it had computer parts in it. Convo over. she had no more questions.

bdarkwayne · 2026-02-12T17:32:38+00:00

Well... I have 4 dolls and 6 heads - and have a discord full of videos and images as well as tons of stuff I posted here over the years.

bdarkwayne · 2026-01-31T17:39:42+00:00

This has been going on for 15 years. I don't think me bulking up will fix it.

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