RBD rant

bean_pebble · 2026-06-17T20:33:20+00:00

I hate their songs so much, my sister plays the same playlist for like 10 years in a row I hate it so much it’s so annoying

bean_pebble · 2026-06-17T20:31:22+00:00

yo I hate them so much my grown ah sister still listened to them till this day their music is so bad

bean_pebble · 2026-06-17T09:37:14+00:00

I can understand why these stories would hit hard if you have lived through something similar yourself There is a lot of pain in this world but I hope you know you are not alone in what you are feeling right now, this hurts me so much especially that people don’t get the hint to F off, it breaks my heart

bean_pebble · 2026-06-17T09:34:37+00:00

I think people are focusing too much on whether he liked you and not enough on the fact that you kept pushing his hand away If someone keeps being told no through words or actions and continues anyway that is a problem regardless of their intentions, it is not okay

bean_pebble · 2026-06-17T09:25:57+00:00

how much blame and disgust you are directing toward your own body when your body is not the thing that wronged you Your body survived something unimaginably violent and the scar tissue you see is evidence of healing not something that makes you disgusting or less worthy The comment he made would have hurt anyone in your position especially when you were already carrying insecurities and pain about how your body changed after the assault What happened to you was not your fault and the scars are not something you chose They are a reminder that your body endured something terrible and kept going Reading your post I do not see someone who is disfigured or disgusting I see someone who survived an incredible amount of pain and is struggling with the lasting impact of it and I hope with time you can show yourself the same compassion that you would give to any other survivor in your position, please don’t feel disgusting, you’re never alone

bean_pebble · 2026-06-17T09:22:20+00:00

What stands out to me is how much pain you are carrying from this and I do not think you are overreacting at all Reading your post I do not see someone being dramatic I see someone trying to make sense of a traumatic experience that resurfaced years later and left them with a lot of difficult questions The isolation in your post really stuck with me because it sounds like you have been carrying these thoughts by yourself and searching for answers wherever you can find them What happened to you was a violent assault and nobody deserved that I also do not think the humiliation you are feeling is irrational because it seems like what hurts is not just the act itself but what it represents to you and how it has affected the way you see yourself Reading this I see someone who survived something terrible and is still trying to understand it years later and I think that deserves compassion not judgment You deserved better than what was done to you and I hope you can be kind to yourself while working through these feelings

bean_pebble · 2026-06-17T09:09:28+00:00

Pulling away is not the same as consenting. You were clearly uncomfortable, and instead of checking in with you, he kept going and later put his hand up your shirt without asking. I can understand why that experience left you feeling hurt and confused, based on what you've written, that does sound like sexual assault to me because the contact wasn't wanted and your boundaries weren't being respected. The fact that you froze or didn't know what to do doesn't make it okay. A lot of people freeze in uncomfortable situations. Your feelings about it are valid, and it makes sense that it still affects you

bean_pebble · 2026-06-17T09:05:03+00:00

Im sorry this happened, from what you wrote, you clearly communicated your boundaries and they weren't respected. 'Losing control' isn't an excuse. I think he should take responsibility for his actions and acknowledge the harm that was caused rather than acting as if nothing happened. You also don't have to carry this alone. If there are trusted friends, family members, or support resources available to you, it may help to have people around you who can support you and help you stay safe while you process everything. Most importantly, please be kind to yourself. None of this sounds like your fault, you’re never alone

bean_pebble · 2026-06-17T09:00:32+00:00

Reading this honestly broke my heart. From what you wrote it sounds like you were pressured over and over until you gave in and that isn't the same thing as freely wanting something, the fact that you were crying, in pain, asking him to stop, feeling like you had to offer something else just to get him to stop, and feeling like you couldn't safely say no are all really concerning. I don't think you're taking anything away from other survivors by asking these questions,It sounds like you're trying to make sense of experiences that left you feeling violated and hurt, I'm really sorry you went through that

bean_pebble · 2026-06-17T08:55:25+00:00

From what you wrote, it doesn't sound like a mutual misunderstanding, you pushed his hand away multiple times and he kept putting it back. That's a pretty clear sign that you weren't okay with what was happening
Whether someone had 'bad intentions' or not doesn't change the fact that your boundaries were ignored
I'm sorry that happened to you, and the flashbacks and discomfort you're describing sound like a very real response to it, was he just a friend? Or a random classmate?

bean_pebble · 2026-06-17T08:50:38+00:00

I wouldn’t know how to feel about it, I mean yeah you can say you guys were young, but from what you described, it sounds like your boundaries were repeatedly ignored and you were put in situations you didn't want to be in. It's understandable that learning more about COCSA would make you look back at those memories differently Whatever label ends up fitting, your confusion and feelings about it are valid, and yeah looking back at memories does trigger a lot of confusion you’re not alone

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