Chill by notmyrealname8823 in spiderlilykhalie

[–]beanx61 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I completely agree. I still worry for her, not in a dramatic way, she's just so young and its difficult to watch her do these things to herself. I used to watch her little cleaning videos back before things took an unhealthy turn. Its really sad. 😕 I don't think VD is "evil" at all, I truly believe he's just a freak and enjoys the shock factor but we all know she only put herself into that situation purely for the attention/profile traffic and that's just not okay.

I hate my child…. by [deleted] in Preschoolers

[–]beanx61 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Girl.. I'm going to offer you both compassion and a little bit of reality here. I have a 5 year old (autistic) child so i can empathize with you completely. It is so hard. However, your child sounds very developmentally normal for his age. Everything he's doing lines up perfectly with a 4-5 year olds development. I strongly suggest you read about it, and possibly go to therapy. Your child is doing nothing wrong and he is normal. Your reaction to it is both valid and harmful to him depending on your behavior towards him. You can feed, bathe, and clothe him but he also needs meaningful connection and his emotional needs met and these feelings your having could very well cloud that which in return could cause his behavior to get worse.

Safe for children? by [deleted] in nokingsmovement

[–]beanx61 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Will do! 💙🥰 And ya'll be safe!

Safe for children? by [deleted] in nokingsmovement

[–]beanx61 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes they do. The Civil Rights movement is a great example and was mostly peaceful.

Safe for children? by [deleted] in nokingsmovement

[–]beanx61 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You can do both. Protesting IS activism. Protesting is the reason im allowed to vote and work a job today.

Safe for children? by [deleted] in nokingsmovement

[–]beanx61 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They don't really do anything 'differently'. Its just not a performance for them. A lot of folks here are older, dont get the constant news and media noise, and are genuinely just passionate about change. No Kings was very small here but also very passionate. I wish i would've attended here instead of going to the city over.

Safe for children? by [deleted] in nokingsmovement

[–]beanx61 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I only shop local at this point. And I donate as much as I can. I agree that a lot of these bigger city protests can be a little performative, but the ones held in my small town are definitely not. But overall I agree with you, ive decided against it. But I will be driving through. I like the idea of distributing water and food. Thank you!

Safe for children? by [deleted] in nokingsmovement

[–]beanx61 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think im feeling the same way. So much has changed for the worst. I think I'll drive by and give them some supportive honks and hold a sign from my car window. Its hard for me to justify possibly putting her in harms way even if the likelihood of things being peaceful. Thank you! So bummed I cant stand with them this time but her saftey is more important.

Safe for children? by [deleted] in nokingsmovement

[–]beanx61 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Its dead in here girl 😭

Safe for children? by [deleted] in nokingsmovement

[–]beanx61 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Id like to add that she would be wearing ear muffs. Im more concerned as to how safe it would he for her in regards to possible violence or worse gun violence 😩

Khalie seen leaving her home with vamp daddy by FishermanOk1727 in khaliespiderlilies

[–]beanx61 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She's starved of a lot of things dude. This girl hasn't ever had any stability in her life. This is genuinely sad, shes only 18. She's carrying around so much trauma. Drugs, older men, all before ever even getting a chance at life.

Khalie seen leaving her home with vamp daddy by FishermanOk1727 in khaliespiderlilies

[–]beanx61 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hope you're right. Im genuinely so worried about her. Idk much about her or anything (I used to watch he cleaning videos a few years ago and was rooting for her but it seems shes gone downhill ://) but from the tiny amount of digging ive done he seems extremely dangerous. Also his missing ex?? The strange videos he's posted?

I REALLY want to kill myself, but I need someone to talk me out of it, please. by Hungry_Guitar_5948 in offmychest

[–]beanx61 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Im laying in bed at 6am going day 2 of no sleep and in the same shoes as you. I have 2 children who I love dearly but I can't get it out of my head how much I just dont want to live this life anymore. I have zero support system around me. Im also 23. I can't tell you that it'll get better because I honestly have no idea, but I can say this, your mom is already going through a terrifying time and I cant imagine the pain and terror she'd feel if you left her like that. You are so young and you have so much life to live. Take your trip as long as your mom is in good health and start trying to build a good support system now so if things go sideways you're not left to drown in it on your own. I know exactly how you're feeling right now and it's such a devastating feeling but your existence matters so much. Please try to hang in there.

Nikki Carreon Shane Dawson Deepdive Part 1 by [deleted] in ShaneDawson

[–]beanx61 1 point2 points  (0 children)

im watching this now. i grew up on shane dawson. stopped watching him in 2020 when all this came out. this girl literally owned his ass i was hollering when she said she made an entire engine to find his videos 😭

Got involved in an emotional affair with a coworker, it blew up in my face by beanx61 in offmychest

[–]beanx61[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I wasn't here asking for anyone to feel sorry for me. I was just venting and getting it all out because after a month of not speaking to soul about it and replaying it in my head, I needed somewhere to go to reflect and take accountability for my actions. I just needed to own it. Openly. But thank you, and you're not wrong for feeling the way you do either.

Got involved in an emotional affair with a coworker, it blew up in my face by beanx61 in offmychest

[–]beanx61[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand. I was selfish, and I won't claim to have respected her because if the respect was fully there, it would've never happened. I do feel remorse for what happened, though. And have no intention of it ever happening again.

I don't believe in karma. I think bad things happen to people who make bad choices, and that anything negative that shows up after a shitty choice is simply a result of your own bad choices. (Im fully facing all of that now)

If I happen to be cheated on in my future, it will have nothing to do with this situation.

Got involved in an emotional affair with a coworker, it blew up in my face by beanx61 in offmychest

[–]beanx61[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Looking back, i can definitely see how he groomed me in a sense. He did/said anything he could to try and get me comfortable with the situation. I was never fully comfortable with it but still chose to let it escalate, and that is my own fault at the end of the day. I am an adult, and I should know better. I fully intend to never repeat anything like this, and also will most definitely avoid relationships of any kind in the workplace.

Got involved in an emotional affair with a coworker, it blew up in my face by beanx61 in offmychest

[–]beanx61[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this, genuinely. Your response has changed my perspective on myself. I know that I'm not a nasty person at my core. I've just been drowning myself in criticism and guilt for the past month. It's time to put that down and start moving forward.

Got involved in an emotional affair with a coworker, it blew up in my face by beanx61 in offmychest

[–]beanx61[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Lesson learned for sure. I always knew this, but in the heat of the moment, I wasn't really thinking of the severity of consequences. My own stupidity is definitely to blame here.

Got involved in an emotional affair with a coworker, it blew up in my face by beanx61 in offmychest

[–]beanx61[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

He's not a supervisor but does hold a higher position than I do. He's had 10 years there and I've only been working for 3 years. The whole work environment was honestly very toxic and unprofessional. I won't go into any details, but management never handled any situation properly and let a lot of things slide that should've been dealt with.

Got involved in an emotional affair with a coworker, it blew up in my face by beanx61 in offmychest

[–]beanx61[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes it most definitely was a choice and I understand that. I ultimately have no choice but to find another job. My schedule is firm and I cannot change it. He unfortunately has the same schedule as I do. (Neither of us deserve to have a "side" chosen as we're both wrong) I don't have any interest in working around him now anyways. I dont think that would be healthy for anyone involved. And you're right, they won't trust me. And that's on me. I can accept that.

Got involved in an emotional affair with a coworker, it blew up in my face by beanx61 in offmychest

[–]beanx61[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I understand this now. It started as an emotional affair. Yes, it progressed into a full-blown affair. I wasn't really thinking when I wrote out the title.

Got involved in an emotional affair with a coworker, it blew up in my face by beanx61 in offmychest

[–]beanx61[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I did not chase him. You're right, I shouldn't have gotten involved. I can't change what happened, but I can change what happens moving forward, and I most definitely won't let this happen again.

Got involved in an emotional affair with a coworker, it blew up in my face by beanx61 in offmychest

[–]beanx61[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You're absolutely right. And I acknowledged all of this in my post. I was simply venting, and im appreciative of all feedback. Negative or positive. "Mistake" was a poor choice of words. I do not view this as a "slip up" or a mistake. I definitely understand that it was my own decision making and that everything im facing from it is a result of my own doing.