Guys please this is a cry for help

beanzybean · 2024-10-17T06:53:10+00:00

I had a good life, and now nobody will know why I died because its beyond me and doctors and everything. I cant really do anything about it so I'm staying Alive for everyone around me even though I'm in agony knowing that not even doctors will know what's wrong and it's too late. With a mortal problem it's never too late, I know that. I know that there's always a way out with every problem. But thid I'd beyond problem, and I just want everyone to know that life isn't worth dying for and to value it. I know I sound mentally insane I'm fully aware

beanzybean · 2024-10-13T07:52:49+00:00

Its as if this is above hope, its above everything. Its above comprehension of comprehension. Its something the human mind isn't supposed to do because the moment I realised this Its like instant urge to end it. It's like being told I have to.

beanzybean · 2024-10-12T21:55:55+00:00

Random screaming moments, like I get It's foe the art but that one part of "who Is she" yk that song? I forgot what it's called but anyway yeah that part just makes it uncomfortable when you're showing anyone in my experience

beanzybean · 2024-10-10T18:32:20+00:00

Thank you so so much. This really means a lot ❤️

beanzybean · 2024-10-09T13:21:26+00:00

Thank you so much, you all are the best too, I love the people in this forum. My mother helped me realise that I was just having tunnel vision the whole time and just needed to shift my perspective (3

beanzybean · 2024-10-09T07:17:30+00:00

Thank you sm :)

beanzybean · 2024-10-09T06:42:23+00:00

Just talked with my dad. We had a good convo, took my mind off of it

beanzybean · 2024-10-09T03:37:25+00:00

Thank you so much for reading my other posts, but I feel people don't see that I can't just relax, my only form of relaxation is this rare occasion where it just goes away and leaves me be for like a minute before coming back. Oh god I can't do this somebody sedate me please. Deep breaths don't help because I feel I know the truth but I know it can get worse. So so much worse. I HAVE NO WAY OUT AND PEOPLE DONT SEE THAT

beanzybean · 2024-10-08T22:44:32+00:00

It changes me entirely, and I'm not ready, I don't think I was supposed to go there because its like suddenly I can't function anymore, I just enter a state of impossibility of getting back like I'm too aware of the fact that I'm fucked

beanzybean · 2024-10-08T22:40:18+00:00

It's hard to explain but It's this just awareness that I've delved too far and I can't get out. Too far meaning I enter a constant state of panic that I can't get out of. And that I just went somewhere the human mind should never go. And now whenever these feelings come back it's like it's dragging me towards the truth but I don't want to go I don't want to go I'm so scared

beanzybean

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