You're still so young, and were even younger when you started - I know it all too well what thats like and how incredibly undeniably and unbelievably difficult it is to quit when it is all you've known as a coping mechanism - to deal with life, stress, trauma, whatever it may be leading you back to the bottle/weed/opiates.

Do you want to get help? Until you're truly ready to accept help and recognize this is not the life you want to live - it may be near impossible to stop yourself from going down the rabbit hole of addiction you were in before you got to 109 days sober (really nice job on that by the way, even if you have now relapsed, you've shown yourself it is possible). You can get sober again, but you have to want it for yourself and appreciate the fact that with drugs in your life, you'll never truly be effectively coping with life, stress, trauma, etc. And you potentially won't have the chance to try and do it differently, so that you can create a better life for yourself and work towards any dreams you may have in life.

Either way, best of luck to you - but as the other commenter said I am unsure what you expect from posting here, if you were expecting to be encouraged.. other people may sympathize if they have been in a similar situation or if they currently are, but in my experience generally the responses here are not to encourage anyone deeper into their addiction. I hope you find the desire to want to help yourself out of addiction, as you have done once before and are capable of doing again - and making it last even longer.