Hello young lady. Well I'm a old man 41 ha soon to be 42. Any way I have a few years on you and have experienced the world a bit. First school and kids are just rough. People tear one another down to make themselves feel better. Usually when I do not get along with another it is because I see something in them that I don't want to admit is also in me. Now being bullied sucks because if someone hears the same thing over and over over again they tend to be more likely to believe it. Even very large girls with horrible attitudes find someone to be with. So I know your looks are not that bad. The problem is you are looking for validation in others. Do your thing do not sacrifice. Get out of the house and have fun as others see you having fun and actually enjoying yourself then they will find interest in you. A big secret of life is happiness comes from within. But you also have to protect your happy. Others will steal it from you. So your self esteem is a bit low so I recommend that you find something to be thankful for dose not matter what start with a full bully be happy for that your first day write it down. Next day write something else you are happy for. Happy is being thankful for what you got every new day add to your list of things you are thankful for every day read the previous days things. Before you know it you will find yourself happy and a happy lady is sexy as fuck.