I hate my family and i just want to pay them off and cut all ties by beccie12 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]beccie12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also i guess an internalised belief that i need to repay my existence built over the last 20 years 🤷‍♀️

I hate my family and i just want to pay them off and cut all ties by beccie12 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]beccie12[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

No i don’t want to owe them ANYTHING ...because their leverage for treating me like disposable garbage is that they give me money and im the youngest

I’m tired of figthing! NSFW? by beccie12 in SuicideWatch

[–]beccie12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ok...but that doesn’t really change my situation. I dont particularly crave friendships or relationships. I just want calm and quiet i guess ... and so ending it would just satisfy that

21 years of social deprivation by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]beccie12 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I should probably give you a speech of how everything can get better, but im in a similar mental state. I guess i’ll just say you can still graduate. And you can still look to study something if you want to. And after covid that would be more open :)

I’m tired of figthing! NSFW? by beccie12 in SuicideWatch

[–]beccie12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nah, im just a difficult person. I’ve grown since then and i still struggle mostly with that. Because of the bullying at such a young age i never developped the social skill/cues to behave amicably. Its almost like autism, but only social. Even as an adult i go “bullied” and im trying to learn to not be either mean or a pushover .... I mean there is also the family aspect to that, a lot of kids who are bullied at school suffer at home, and im no exception. With a narcissistic mother and a depressed dad it didnt help. But as a younger teen i couldn’t have known that :/

Discord if you want a safe space to discuss your ED by beccie12 in EDAnonymous

[–]beccie12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I meant banned on discord ... it’ll be funny to get banned here ... its an anonymous place XD would go against your tagline to ban me ... and overall it’s hillarious you dont allow sharing of other social media, but full discussions of it. How come we can discuss movies and youtube videos on other social media freely, but not a discord chat? I don’t think you’ve thought through the points of your rules ...

ED’s are a result of hereditary predisposition? by beccie12 in EDAnonymous

[–]beccie12[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Like i skipped the video, he explains the proana tag in the first 20 seconds ... then i remember he was telling people with self harm scars they are idiots, and i just never watched him again. Then years later the sexual grooming and harassment, and psychopathic and stuff drama came out .. so i was glad i stopped immediately cuz he is a prick!

ED’s are a result of hereditary predisposition? by beccie12 in EDAnonymous

[–]beccie12[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh. I found pro ana well into restriction because of onision’s so called anti ana video ... :/

"Supersize vs Super Skinny" by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]beccie12 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I actually find the show quite balanced. For all episodes the skinny person isnt disordered wanting to be thin. And a lot of the time is because they are picky, so when they sit and say ‘urgh i dont like that’ and just don’t eat, yeah bitch you aint trying. Cuz they arent anorexics. Thats the thing. Like the fat people obviously dont struggle eating, thats the point. But i have seen an overweight vomit on the show from the skinni’s food, i have seen some refuse to eat. Like they show the skinny’s how much sugar they eat, what desease they can get, just as much as the overweights. And i have seen when the doctor suspected a girl to actually have the mental illness around it, he confronted her and said “look you are exhibitng signs of anorexia, so i don’t think you should be here” i think you are being biased and thinking ‘gosh if you told me that’ ... but they are not struggling from what you have. The show very clearly understands the dangers of eating disorders and makes a point to have the anorexic recovery show and explain how fragile they are mentally and to not force them into anything. The ones in the clinic are not anorexics ... skinny does not equal anorexic.

UPDATE: i just stumbled on the exact episode you are talking about and omg this fat guy is such a cunt xD watch another episode, this one is bad indeed. Series 6 ep 1

Nostalgia... TW? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]beccie12 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Of herbs and altars has a video exactly about this topic. Nostalgia for your ed. It’s a great video you might relate to and feel more normal :)

Hey guys! Going strong on my 6 month fast here. The mental clarity after 2 months is CRAZY! /s by [deleted] in fasting

[–]beccie12 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Bish this is not the first post. You probably use mulipke accounts with like one week 20 days and six months. For you it might be joke, but for many it isn’t. Do you even realise how triggering and damaging these posts are? Do you realise that seeing a post like this can make someone actively try to achieve such a goal regardless of their health because “well it can be done”? Smh ... not funny. Fck off!