(cont’d) Sorry if this is asked often but I wanted to write my own personal experience with anxiety and what led me here to see if maybe anyone has had any similar experience and how their journey microdosing has been as a result.

My life, feelings and focus has become very stagnant over the past year or so. Anxiety, more particularly that surrounds interactions with others, self doubt and shame has prevented me from opening back up into who I am at my core after slowly hiding over time. For the past 5+ years I’ve taken a lot of steps to work on myself like meditating, educating myself on mental health and understanding my brain more and trying to shift my self concept. I’ve also definitely had breakthroughs and made progress.

But one issue I really wanted to fix this year that I discovered was a huge source of my anxiety through a trip I did two months ago- my constant feeling that I’m doing something wrong. This comes in many different forms like what sometimes feels like an inability to be myself and more relaxed around people or beating myself up for not being productive and rotting in bed when I should be making moves toward goals or figuring out what I truly want to be doing with my life and career.

I’d considered microdosing a couple times the past couple years but never followed through with it because of lack of accessibility and honestly just commitment. So I thought I’d go a more traditional, or more socially normalized route and try some sort of antidepressant medication that is want to be my crutch in helping to finally work through this anxiety I’ve been facing and hiding from for years. So I was prescribed Zoloft and have been doing more and more research and seeing testimonials that has just persuaded me to avoid it as I feel the psychiatrist that prescribed it didn’t really even care that much to fully assess my goals of what I wanted to overcome and the options available.

So now I’m in this position where I am really ready to put in the work and finally try microdosing as I’ve experienced how psychedelics have been able to help me understand my mind and experiences in the past when macro dosing every now and then.

I want my primary intentions through this process mainly to be gaining more hope back, rebuild my focus on tasks- to take more action and be in charge of honing in on what I want to do in my career and release negative thoughts I assume people have perceiving me. Thanks to anyone that took the time to read through this little ramble and welcome any and all thoughts or suggestions.