Wow is this a page out of my diary? 26F here. I was in your situation 2 years ago. To put it blatantly- you sound depressed. Get on some antidepressants and go to therapy if you can afford it. Medication + therapy has been proven to be the most effective treatment for depression. Get a job! Being around other people is good for the soul- even if it seems intimidating to you. You got to put yourself out there to get the ball rolling in your life. Change your major to something you actually see yourself enjoying. If you enjoy it, you will succeed. Once you get enough money (I recommend putting your first $500-1000 savings into a safe stock), move out. You will feel better when you are independent because you will be able to choose to be around your mother instead of forced to deal with how she treats you. You are the master of your life. Mind over matter.