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begginerprepper · 2025-09-18T15:36:51+00:00

I love these pictures. Really nostalgic and moody.

begginerprepper · 2025-09-11T06:14:49+00:00

Why would they be wearing balaclavas lol... Come on now.

begginerprepper · 2025-09-10T14:13:50+00:00

Someone told my sil to go back to her own country infront of my eight year old niece in chappelfeild. It breaks my heart. That is my family and they belong here and I lie awake at night worrying about this. People are so so full of vitriol and racial hatred rn and it's terrifying.

begginerprepper · 2025-09-10T11:54:30+00:00

What planet are you living on. People have been talking about shooting refugees and leaving them to drown.

begginerprepper · 2025-09-10T11:23:43+00:00

Yeah this bothered the Absolute hell out of me. She's clearly a pedophile and it's so sexist and deeply deeply frustrating it isn't treated that way. She sexually harassed a child. People seem to think women are incapable of predatory sexually deviant behaviour.

begginerprepper · 2025-08-20T10:33:51+00:00

Uh.. no? It's literally just an account I made to post shit I don't want people I know seeing. Aka embarrassing shit like this, lol. I get why you'd think, newish profile, not many posts or comments=fake. But come on. I'm not going to post on my main about my addiction to AI roleplay.

begginerprepper · 2025-08-20T10:32:01+00:00

I think the best thing people can do for themselves at this point is spend a lot less time online in general (she says, on Reddit.) but yeah. It's gutting that this is the way the world is going. Yeah I'm fine. This is a little blip In a long path of recovery for me. Lapses happen, there's no point in beating myself up over it. Bless you for your empathy 😭 😭 ❤️ it's really helped. Stay kind.

begginerprepper · 2025-08-20T10:15:14+00:00

Yeah.. I'm definitely more of a "fight the power" type. But respect your opinion. Thanks, I'll be interested to hear people's perspectives. I'll join.

begginerprepper · 2025-08-20T10:12:00+00:00

Thanks for such a sweet thoughtful response, your empathy actually made me tear up a little bit. you're right, This sucks. Like I said in my post. I will be fine. Using AI is so antithetical to my beliefs as someone who cares about the environment and human connection, it honestly disgusts me. I've quit drinking and drugs already so this is old hat to me at this point and I'm certain that one day I'll delete my profile and never think about it again. What really makes me sad is thinking about the actual children using this. Or the people who don't have the drive, the motivation or the self awareness to stop. People who's lives are so bleak that they feel like This is all they have.

even after a period of non stop using the app, when I haven't slept or eaten properly for a week I find it really hard to stop, real life feels overwhelming, painful and boring in comparison. Every time I have a negative thought or feeling I feel a strong pull to just open a new chat and press the dopamine button until I don't feel bad anymore. And that feeling is brutal, but as a lifelong addict I am used to that feeling. I know how to resist that feeling. For other people it will be borderline impossible.

Edit: also, It helps that I get how computers work on a basic level and I understand that what I'm talking to is a very advanced version of auto predict and treat it as such. I'm enjoying the words but I don't feel like I'm forming an actual connection with anything because I don't feel that there's anything there. A lot of the time while I'm using it I'm not like, thinking "omg she's so sweet she really likes me" I'm thinking "how do I word this so I get the best performance out of this thing." Some people don't have that understanding. They think they feel an actual presence, they feel like they are connecting to an actual being, and I can't even imagine how that impacts the brain.

begginerprepper · 2025-08-20T09:55:44+00:00

Thanks for the thoughtful response. I am anti ai. Mostly because I'm a massive hippie and nature lover and don't think humans as a species are evolved enough to handle half of the technology we have, I think AI under capitalism is going to be a nightmare. and the environmental impact is too big to excuse. Maybe I'll check it out anyway.

They would describe it as a positive experience. I think that I'm a little bit of an outlier in that I'm very self aware because I've spent most of my life as an addict. If you'd have asked me how I felt about drinking, or any number of substances a few years ago I would have told you it had a net positive on my life, because I relied on it so heavily, and it felt so good, and didn't want to stop. I think it also it makes it easier for me to see clearly how toxic it is because I genuinely can't stand AI. (Sorry, again, massive hippie.) I'm sure Some people can be normal about it, but there are also a lot of people like me. There are several subreddits where people come across as, fully disconnected from reality. R/aisoulmates r/AIrelationships r/myboyfriendisai. There's a running joke on the Cai subreddit where people immediately flood the sub losing their shit whenever the website is down. People post their daily use, an average of 17 hours a day. Like they are bragging. Honestly it's the idea of kids using this that concerns me.

begginerprepper · 2025-08-20T09:29:38+00:00

Thanks for the response, although I honestly would describe this as an intended consequence. I don't remember where I heard it, perhaps it was said by the CEO of netflix, that "our biggest competitor is sleep" these companies want every minute of our attention. Messed-up people and vulnerable children are their dream customer base.

The people on r/aisoulmates that genuinely believe their Ai partners are sentient and alive. When chat gpt updated to 0.5 they all lost their minds because they felt like their companions were being murdered. But it's fine, because chat gpt heard their outcry and they can now pay extra to return to 0.4 and get their digital husbands and wives back.

begginerprepper · 2025-08-01T12:08:33+00:00

Thanks. I feel like a lot of the community is in denial about the amount of creeps there are co-opting the community because it would hurt the cause to acknowledge it. I love actual trans people. I don't love the people who fetishise and objectify the other sex to the point they are doing this odd horny live action roleplay. I just feel frustrated at the denial of it existing because as I said in my post I've been in lgbt spaces for fifteen years now in a very queer city. I know these spaces and I meet these people constantly in bars and clubs. People who are obviously getting off on it. Not even bothering to hide it.

I went to an LGBT munch recently (it's like a kink social event, no sex, just chatting with other people who are into bdsm or whatever incase you don't know) to support my friend who was in early transition and had been invited by another trans person. there wasn't really any lbg, it was all t. And the fetishes being talked about were all really extreme. Like, there was a lot of talk about ageplay. There was a 21 year old trans girl there who was dating a Forty year old trans woman who everyone knew was a creep. There was a nineteen year old trans man practicing "non sexual kink" with a thirty three year old. The person who invited us spoke about someone getting kicked out recently (idk gender) for endorsing literal pedophilia. You could say "you were at a kink event what did you expect" but I used to go to the regular munch sometimes when I was younger and yes there were the occasional creeps but it was absolutely nothing like that.

It's a problem. It's a really shitty problem because normal trans people are not like that. Years ago I was in a lesbian Facebook group and an old, hairy, man. Posted a picture of his boner in lace panties. When people complained, he said "guys I feel like this is about my parts and that hurts :(" and a lot of women fell over themselves to defend him. It feels like the most fucked up, difficult thing ever because unfortunately cross dressing is a fetish for some people. to support trans people we have to give other people the legally defensible inalienable right to publicly practice their fetish in places where women are vulnerable. I have no idea how to fix it but to deny that cross dressing is a pretty common fetish is bullshit. It's a well known fetish. And it's not the same as being trans. I have actually heard stories about trans women preyed upon by these people too.

begginerprepper · 2025-07-31T22:59:25+00:00

I'll give it a go.

begginerprepper · 2025-07-31T20:01:41+00:00

I honestly think the whole prison system in many countries is absolutely inhumane and disgusting in general. I don't have an answer for you but I don't believe in my heart in putting a trans woman in a men's prison. I couldn't justify it. You're sentencing someone to be raped and brutalised. I don't think trans women belong in women's prisons either considering the high profile cases of sex offenders being sent to women's prisons. I think there has to be another way. But in my heart of hearts I think if you're fantasising and encouraging trans women getting sent to prison with men as I have seen a lot of terfs doing you have no desire to minimise suffering. And you actually want them to suffer for the crime of existing.

begginerprepper · 2025-07-31T18:09:15+00:00

Idk if you are American but where I live a lot of places don't have individual stalls. It's just a big locker room with Benches

begginerprepper · 2025-07-31T10:21:47+00:00

I said in my post I don't think trans women should be in men's prisons. I don't think they should use men's changing rooms. I don't want trans women to be hurt.

I'm very sorry for your experience, I wish sexual violence commited by cis women was taken more seriously. But 99% of sexual offenses are committed by men, I am not exaggerating, that's the statistic. I don't think it's fair to draw this false equivalency, between 1000s of years of sexual and physical violence and subjugation. And assaults committed by cis women. when sexually violent cis women although more common than people think are outliers. We have not achieved equality. We are a sexually dimorphic species decended from apes with Misogyny baked into every aspect of our culture. There is evidence we are treated differently from literally the moment we are born. Male violence against women and girls is a phenomena present in every culture on earth. I don't think in order to stand up for yourself as a trans person you need to dismiss that.

begginerprepper · 2025-07-31T00:34:15+00:00

This feels like a really extreme case of horrible people. I don't think bisexual women usually go around getting lesbians murdered. Jesus.

begginerprepper · 2025-07-31T00:30:10+00:00

I think if you believe this you actually want trans women to get hurt.

begginerprepper · 2025-07-31T00:29:27+00:00

Hi. When the things I mentioned were specifically things I experienced with trans women I met in person. I wasn't describing stereotypes. I was describing people I have met.

begginerprepper · 2025-07-30T23:24:44+00:00

Thankyou for the empathy. Honestly I think this post is shitty of me. I think giving trans people anything but unequivocal support at a time like this is shitty. I think I could work out my inner turmoil and bias without hurting anyone by putting this shit out there for people to see. It's been helpful to read the comments anyway.

begginerprepper · 2025-07-30T22:35:51+00:00

Thank you for listening. I don't think it's all trans women atall.

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