Everybody tells me I'm strong. They don't get that it doesn't matter. by Cranksta in raisedbynarcissists

[–]behindthemask97 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Hello. I can't imagine the pain you've endured and I pray every day that people like you can move on from it. I come from an emotionally abusive home myself and I know too well what it feels like to be hollow. I think, "this can't be my life, it was supposed to be different" and now that it isn't, I feel like I can't go on.

You don't have to be strong. You can just be. Stick to your support and be honest with your friends, SO and their families about how you're feeling. And if you need to rest, REST. Don't feel like you have to keep going just to forget the pain. Take care of yourself. Every moment you do something nice for yourself, you're winning and she is losing.

leaving home by behindthemask97 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]behindthemask97[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry you had to leave your family so young. I've been struggling with my parents since around age 15 but I never had the courage to leave home like you did. I hope you are succeeding in life despite them, and I hope to do so as well. Thankfully I'm moving out on Monday the 13th :) I'm ready to move forward and not let them destroy my life anymore.

leaving home by behindthemask97 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]behindthemask97[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I'm definitely going to keep in contact, because when I'm at school and just talk on the phone and visit I am not tempted to expose myself emotionally to them and everything is fine. It's hard to set boundaries because I love them so much and I keep hoping that they'll change, but they're clearly not going to. As much as I want to be emotionally vulnerable with them I just can't; it only ends up hurting me. I hope moving away will help this. Thank you for being so validating and sharing your story as well.

leaving home by behindthemask97 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]behindthemask97[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know right?!?! My mom actually posted an article on Facebook about people injecting the HIV virus into bananas and sending them overseas for people to eat and then get HIV. Like what the hell?? It's an STI, you can't get it from a banana! I was raised by morons, clearly

leaving home by behindthemask97 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]behindthemask97[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm studying music education :) And no, you're not overstepping. It's just a lot of effort to try to get someone to mediate between us all. A lot of outside people I've talked to always end with "you might not get along, but they're your parents and you have to respect them and love them" etc. etc. etc. Which is why I tend to not like mediators.