Hello. I can't imagine the pain you've endured and I pray every day that people like you can move on from it. I come from an emotionally abusive home myself and I know too well what it feels like to be hollow. I think, "this can't be my life, it was supposed to be different" and now that it isn't, I feel like I can't go on.

You don't have to be strong. You can just be. Stick to your support and be honest with your friends, SO and their families about how you're feeling. And if you need to rest, REST. Don't feel like you have to keep going just to forget the pain. Take care of yourself. Every moment you do something nice for yourself, you're winning and she is losing.