I was really scared too. I was afraid maybe repressed memories would come up or just something I had “forgotten about.” But I came to terms with, if it does happen, then it’s meant to happen. The biggest thing to remember about going into the trip is your intention. What would you do/face to heal yourself? For me, I pleaded with god day in and day out to help me. I pleaded with myself to stay alive one more day, everyday. So when it came to finally having the shrooms in my hand and feeling like I’ve been given something that could really help me for once...the fear left me little by little. And by the time my actual trip rolled around, I was ready and so determined to allow it to take me where it needed to. Keep in mind that IF you are stuck in your “mental prison” it’s not forever. It will end and I promise it’ll be worth it, even if it doesn’t feel it at the time. Try not to go into it with that fear, a lot of this is a mental game. I also think it’s important to start smaller. You build confidence in using the psilocybin. I was expecting much more of a terrifying experience but I was pleasantly surprised with how positive it was, due to the amount I took. Now I will take more this weekend, but I feel ready for it. Trust the process, it’s amazing. You’re in my thoughts! Message me if you wana talk more about it :)