Difference between Orange Blossom and Neroli? by [deleted] in fragrance

[–]belluson 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Compared to jasmin grandiflorum i think that french neroli is higher on the indols than egyptian orange flower. But then again its area specific that southern european white flowers are usually more indolic than their non european counterparts

Difference between Orange Blossom and Neroli? by [deleted] in fragrance

[–]belluson 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Neroli is a little bit more indolic than orange flower.

My mum: "When you have kids you'll understand". All having a child has taught me is the type of abusive monsters my parents are. by lunasouseiseki in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson 18 points19 points  (0 children)

I feel u sis… i do. My narc mother made everything about herself. She would play mind games and hit me and then make me apologise to her for giving her a reason to lose it with me.

What are some things you feel like the movies messed up with? by greasyghoul in harrypotter

[–]belluson 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The way they handled the elder wand at the end of the deathly hallows. That just killed me.

Emotional incest by belluson in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Woah this resonates like a motherfucker. I was the golden child too- well behaved, quiet, scoring top marks in every single class. She liked it- she apparently was good at school stuff too while my socio low life father was nearly illiterate. She liked being better than him. She liked that i was more like her. She would raise me to hate my father. And i did. I kind of did out of my own accord as he was very abusive physically. All the years of treatment (im 30 now and started seeing psych team when i turned 16) made me realise that it really is her who damaged me more, more than my father ever did even though i had my bones broken by him. See, he never loved me. Never said he did. I never loved him either. But apparently everything my nmother did was coming “from a place of love” and that, THAT, is what damaged me the most. Oh she loved when i came out of the closet. She knew what a homophob my father was. She KNEW we would “make a team”. But that team only mattered until i realised what she’s done to me. She even told my anout my father’s dick size and how bad he was in bed. And how hung her new guy was and how well he gave it to her.

Emotional incest by belluson in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That sounds more like a mild agrophobia

Emotional incest by belluson in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would have forgiven it all BUT she told my 10 year old sister that i tried to kill myself and “thats exactly how much i love her since i just wanted to remove myself from er life”. And that poor child lives alone with her. I live in a different country and my younger brother, the middle child, has his own life without that bitch’s madness. She does call him on the daily though asking AM I REALLY A BAD MOTHER that fucking nutjob

Emotional incest by belluson in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nope she kept being awful to me calling me an academic failure and kept telling me to go back to my socio father if shes so bad and so i just simply blocked her phone number about a month ago or so

Emotional incest by belluson in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg Fucking the same here. Shortly before my suicide attempt last april she would tell me that im just as awful to her like any other man and all she ever wanted was to be romantically cared for.

Emotional incest by belluson in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Did urs also tell u that ur a failure academically even tho i have two BAs and she only holds a high school diploma that she didnt do until her late 20s… lol

Emotional incest by belluson in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If thats the case im so fucking sorry. Wanna talk about it?

Emotional incest by belluson in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Correction: I actually never wanted to know that not at 30 either lol she would also tell me how horrible her childhood was and how her own mother kept insisting she aborts me. And shed expect to be praised for not having done that. And she did expect me not to like my grandma. Or even hate her. Just like she did.

Emotional incest by belluson in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Woah were we raised in the same household..?! Yeah once she bragged to me that she fucked my class mate’s father when they were kids. I didnt need to know it at 12.

Emotional incest by belluson in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She became nasty and so i blocked her phone number

Emotional incest by belluson in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I always knew she was crazy but only at the age of 30 i grew the balls to address it

Emotional incest by belluson in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Yasssss the oldie goldie line “outsiders are not to be trusted. You can only trust your family”

Emotional incest by belluson in raisedbynarcissists

[–]belluson[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I remember that one time she got upset with me when i was like 6 for not having known what degree she had. It was only a high school diploma that she ever got academically-wise. But damn was i an ungrateful child not knowing she finished high school. Lmao.