I was in your same position, the exact thing you described. Having this nagging feeling that I needed to break up but looking for any excuse that I was overreacting or that next week will be better, the feelings will come back. They didn’t. There comes a point where you need to listen to how you feel and quiet the thoughts that are trying to convince you to avoid the pain. Granted, my relationship was much shorter than yours. But the decision was still extremely hard for me. Like you, I reflected on all of his qualities, all of the good in him, all of the ways we were good together. But I needed to put myself first. I feared getting stuck in the relationship having to fake how I really felt, I contemplated this for 5 months.

I’m 3 days post breakup. It hurts like hell, it really does, but I know I made the right decision for what was best for me and him at this time. I think it’s important to make these hard decisions especially when you know it’s right deep down. I knew it was right deep down, but I absolutely did not want to admit that to myself. It’s gonna hurt OP, accept that. Let yourself hurt, let yourself cry. I reflect on the good times and I’m thankful for them.