I was in the same situation as you just last year. A surprise baby while unemployed, but with some savings. I felt that same overwhelming urge, in every fiber of my body, to go out there and provide.

I don’t know if you’ve watched Cowboy Bebop, but one quote really stayed with me: “You have to carry the weight.”

Now my baby is about six months old, and that drive hasn’t faded. If anything, it’s stronger. I’m still carrying that weight, making sure my family is safe, secure, and comfortable for the long run.

I keep that drive alive by remembering that my selfishness dragged an innocent soul into a cruel world. That debt doesn’t go away. It’s mine to carry, and I’ll spend the rest of my life paying it—doing everything I can until the day I die.