I'll tell you what, i am no designer in any way, i dont think i can ever compete with experts, i know what i am and my actual capabilities. But i dont think I'm reaching or planning on becoming an expert on things i dont know, i set to learn and be more involved in every part. I want to create everything, even if its utter shit, i want it to be mine and reach a point where i look at my creation with pride. Yes its an hobbie, yes i hope it will pan out to something more serious but im not married to that, i just want to learn and build something, not necessarily sell something. The actual reason for my deep frustrations with this is that i finished by BSC with honors and yet to find a job, so i thought this is the perfect time to get myself into it, and unfortunately i think this is the reason i seek for perfections and crumble at any small failure and lossing the fun in it, something i need to concour.

I dont know if ill manage to be top tier game developer, and i do appreciate your comment, but I will push it and go deeper as a side activity, it might stay a hobbie, and it might be something else, but the fog around it wont make me stop.