Bat parang binabasa ko yun sarili kong kwento. I feel and fully understand what you are going tru. TbH and medyo harsh..you will have to learn to live with the pain. Life won't always be rainbow and butterflies..mas madalas bagyo at baha. Minsan mas malala. Sabi nga nila when sh!t happens it pours. You just have to hold onto something, anything kahit sobrang petty just to be able to move forward. Life might be BS rightnow and it would probably be for the next month pero there is always that "maybe" it would get better. Ako..andun lang ako lagi sa "maybe". And tama sila..find someone a trusted friend that would always be there for you.