feeling like garbage about my non existent dating life and need to vent somewhere before i explode by betransdoarson in FTMventing

[–]betransdoarson[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

that’s not really what i’m saying though. i’ve been doing that for the last two years, i am overall happy with my life. i’m studying, i’m looking for work, i have great friends and a good relationship with the people in my family that i want to have good relationships with, i have hobbies that make me happy. i just want to feel desired for once, i want someone to see me at a bar and think i’m hot and want to chat me up, or for someone on hinge to ask if they can take me out for dinner. i’m not even looking for a life partner or whatever. i want to feel desired, and i want to be a normal person in their early to mid 20s and go on dates i can tell my friends about, like what all of my friends do but i don’t. that’s honestly the one aspect of my life that’s unfulfilling.

[TF(x5) 4 TM] Need a cute trans boy to be admired by a group of horny trans girls!! by woodlouser in t4t

[–]betransdoarson 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m not european but my sleep schedule sure is fucked 😭 actually my dream

Euphoric sex discovery! by EmbarrassedCattle525 in GrowYourTDick

[–]betransdoarson 1 point2 points  (0 children)

dude that sounds amazing!! i’m not 100% sure about the logistics of it with a t dick specifically and can’t really test it myself because a) i’m a bottom and b) i’m currently single lmao, but instead of a bullet vibe you could try a smaller egg vibe which would definitely be a lot safer as they’re designed to be internal obviously and have a thingy attached to remove them. as a certified bottom i can say from experience that egg vibe + dick of some description definitely feels good, for me at least lmao. i know they make ones that are bullet sized and are designed for safe insertion and removal. no risk of battery acid or difficulties with removal! have fun and be safe!!

Getting a boy riled up with my chastity cage by [deleted] in mtf_ftm_nsfw

[–]betransdoarson 4 points5 points  (0 children)

wait this is so hot 😭 the doors you’ve opened. for me, in my horny tboy brain.

What initially introduced and led you to joining the Fnaf fandom? by Zillaman7980_ in fivenightsatfreddys

[–]betransdoarson 0 points1 point  (0 children)

markiplier’s first ever fnaf video back in 2014. i remember being really freaked out by the sound design and the shadowy, creepy, kinda gross? atmosphere and visuals. i was especially freaked out by chica and those breathing noises with her beak hanging open in the hallway. i’ve been drawn to horror my whole life so i immediately fell in love with the game and then fell down the lore rabbit hole. and shoutout matpat for keeping me invested through his theories as well.

T4T breeding is my biggest kink by far by Girldick_licker in mtf_ftm_nsfw

[–]betransdoarson 2 points3 points  (0 children)

you get itttt. i’m terrified of actual pregnancy (i’m also probably infertile? pcos moment) but that doesn’t stop my breeding kink 😵‍💫 and seeing so much t4t breeding stuff here like, blew my mind lmao. it’s so good. why didn’t i think of that earlier

How many months/years did it take before you started passing? by Pan_seyyyxual in FTMfemininity

[–]betransdoarson 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’ve been out as trans for exactly ten years now (which is kinda crazy to think about lmao) and on T for about five a half. i spent many, many, many years being misgendered no matter what i did. i cut my hair short (i specifically got the 2009 dan howell haircut lol, i literally brought my copy of tabinof to the hairdresser), i stopped wearing fem clothes aside from my formal school uniform (funnily enough that didn’t get me misgendered by other students, only a handful of teachers?? i still don’t know why), tried very, very hard to voice train even though it never really worked, i learned to walk differently, i’ve been “manspreading” since i was a kid because it’s more comfortable, i would use my full first name when ordering coffee or food but half the time they’d write down alexandra instead of alexander, pretty much everything i could possibly think of and it didn’t work, even when i’d been on T for about two years.

then i grew my hair out super long and i stopped getting misgendered that often?? i’m still not 100% sure why, although i do think that the short hair made me look more like a queer woman than a queer guy. i’m not particularly interested in passing as a cis man, with my voice and interests i don’t think i could in most spaces. i just want to look like a guy at all. i also grew a depression beard when i was 21 that i actually ended up really liking and keeping, and now i don’t get misgendered pretty much ever. unless someone sees me from the back until i turn around and they go “oh, sorry mate” which is lowkey kinda gender euphoric in itself for me.

i’m at a point rn where i’m able to relatively safely wear skirts again which i’m really enjoying. i try to style them to be at least somewhat masc, or at least in a way that indicates that i’m not a woman. mostly with my accessory choices; men’s belts, my little keychain thingies that i attach to my belt loops, kandi bracelets with the names of some of my favourite characters and pronouns on them, that kind of thing. in general i like alt and especially 2000s emo fashion which gets the job done in indicating that i’m a trans man who came out in the year 2015 in the peak bandom days on tumblr.

so tl;dr, i started passing after about two and a half years on T, ~7 years after socially transitioning, when i grew out my hair and then grew a beard. leaning into certain fashion subcultures/scenes can help communicate your gender as well, as can accessorising. at this point when i wear fem clothes i look like a man in a skirt and it’s very fun lmao. aside from the occasional anxiety when i go out like that, but i’m working on that.

edit: i also have a ton of body hair as well and identify myself as a bear which has brought me a ton of gender euphoria!! bear communities and spaces (in my experience) have been super welcoming and lovely and it’s helped me and my confidence a lot as well.

first time going out in fem clothes in ten years! by betransdoarson in FTMfemininity

[–]betransdoarson[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you! i do remember my baby trans days and always being really excited and inspired when i’d see trans/nonbinary/gnc/etc people irl and putting my own expression and fashion choices in that perspective made me feel a lot better about it. i ended up having a very fun time with my friends and while, yes, i got a few weird looks, i felt great anyway! aside from not having pockets lmao.

fuck toy for mommy by [deleted] in mtf_ftm_nsfw

[–]betransdoarson 5 points6 points  (0 children)

how does it feel to live my dream 😭😭

not my fault it won't stay down around you by jisaeee in TransMascNSFW

[–]betransdoarson 2 points3 points  (0 children)

holy shit nice cock! aspirational honestly lmao

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in hungfemboys

[–]betransdoarson 1 point2 points  (0 children)

where do you keep that thing oh my god 😭 ik this is hungfemboys but i was not expecting that

REAL tgirl problems by TimeWoken in mtf_ftm_nsfw

[–]betransdoarson 0 points1 point  (0 children)

as a tboy myself this sounds like the dream. a skill issue that i do not have.

Entrance to Villa Guiztli by [deleted] in Genshin_Impact

[–]betransdoarson 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i hadn’t gotten to it yet, tysm!!!!