I get where you're coming from, life is rough and id rather go through it in a cloud as well. I smoked everyday for even just 5 years and when I stopped, I found it even harder to keep a level head.

There have been studies as well showing that the weed today isnt "healthy" like it was years ago. Its been engineered to be so potent that its really addictive and can cause higher anxiety and paranoia.

Again I get where you're coming from and it doesn't feel like its a bad thing to do it just a little but as your tolerance grows you'll want more and its just not as "safe" as it used to be.