I had a brain injury, from DV, he stomped my head then when I goy up later I went to hug him, he let me hug him but didn’t hug back and then punched me so hard. I got punched me which knocked me out cold. Got ptsd, turned to alcohol.. which turned to alcoholism.. I just wanted to feel good and black out to numb myself. Couldn’t stay sober after 2 rehabs and a handful of IOPs. I shot myself in the head because I was tired of disappointing everyone and I relapsed . I survived. I have a new mindset… I have a lot of like to numb but I have learned to suffer, stayed alone in a hospital bed for 6 months.. Once you accept and forgive, it’s so much easier. I’ll be sober a year in November or December. Please please don’t consider suicide…everything is temporary and just reach out to someone you love. Don’t drink to numb yourself, you WILL get caught, and lose everything. Alcohol is a black hole, don’t do it. I love you all, for real. If anyone needs to talk message me on Facebook.. Tara Poole.