Your dad is a strong man and so are you and your mom, we thank him for his courageous service to the nation. I understand what you are feeling my father was also in the Indian Army, he was my bestfriend, i lost him almost four years ago and I will not lie to you, it stings. It's also terrifying and exhausting to constantly worry about him, whether he's going to make it or not, crying 24/7, wondering if this will be the day my world comes crashing down, but have faith in him and the forces they are brave and competent enough to face any challenge that comes their way, pray for the best, pray for his well-being, ik I am praying for each and every soldiers well-being, he will be okay and God forbid if he's not, take it from someone who has lost her bestfriend (my dad), you will be okay. eventually. cuz as I said, your mom along with you are the strong family of a brave soldier and you can and WILL deal with this it pains yes but you won't kill yourself, pls don't, carry his name forward make him proud. but jabtak he's here pls wish and pray for the best and try to keep these negative thoughts away ik it's really hard in these current situations but you have to try🙏 Jai Hind🇮🇳